Running Away (Liam Dunbar x Reader - Book 1)

Part 4

Sunday

To: littlebeta2@yahoo.com

From: littlebeta1@hotmail.com

Subject: Day 2

Things are different since you left. The pack is falling apart and we're not all exactly talking to each other anymore. Kira still hasn't come back from wherever she went. Malia is off in her own little world, doing God knows what. Stiles is too quiet and distant. He only seems to be talking to Lydia. They're trying to find the Nematon Parrish has been taking the stolen bodies to. Parrish is so clueless, and no one wants to tell him because we don't know how dangerous he really is. Someone should warn Sheriff Stilinski. Lastly, Scott is getting closer to Theo.

I'm starting to lose my faith and trust in Scott. I haven't talked to him since we found your note the morning you left. He used Hayden as bait, something I'll never forgive him for, and it ended it up with Hayden and me nearly dying. He's trying to save everyone, but lately it doesn't seem like he is. I don't even know what he's trying to do anymore.

I'll briefly ask the pack if they've heard from you, then walk away after I get my answer. The only people I'm talking to are Mason, and my two favorite girls. Well at least one of them is talking back to me, no offense. Hayden and I are getting closer. I feel the need to protect her since no one else does, but at the same time I want to protect her. I really do like her and I don't want her to ever get hurt. So I'm with her every second. All the time we're spending together, and the more I get to know her, the more I like her. She really is amazing. She's the most amazing girl I've ever met. I don't know how I ever disliked her in the first place.

Enough about my life, I wish I knew what was going on in yours. What you're doing, who you're with, where you are.... I wish you would talk to me. I wish you would at least tell someone in the pack where you are and if you're okay, so they can tell me when I ask. I can't stop thinking about you. I'm constantly worried about you. You're not responding back to my emails and I can't help but think of the worst.

It's not the same without you. My life is not the same without you. Everywhere I go I look for you, hoping you'll sneak attack me from behind me somewhere and surprise me that your back home, for good. I'll listen for your voice, your giggle, and your heartbeat, hoping you're at least near me. I wish I could hug you, hold your hand, and ruffle your hair. I know you say you hate when I do that but, I know you secretly love it when I do it.

I want you back.

I need you in my life.

I miss you...

-Liam

You stayed frozen in bed after reading his words, but only one sentence repeated in your mind. She's the most amazing girl I've ever met. You suddenly felt like you weren't amazing, special, or beautiful, at least not in his eyes. Your chest began to tighten wondering if you'll ever be good enough for Liam, if he'll ever notice you the way he notices Hayden. You've never had any insecurities, and right now you couldn't help but doubt yourself about everything. You felt like you just weren't as pretty, skinny, curvy, confidant, or sassy as Hayden.

The dull ache in your heart began to work and you suddenly felt like you couldn't breathe. You've kept everything bottled up, and it was time to let everything out before it exploded and got the best of you. You needed to vent. You needed to talk it out. As much as you didn't want to, you were ready to talk to the boys.

You quietly walked down to the hallway, debating who to wake up first. If you remember correctly, neither of them liked to be woken up, but it's not like they had hangovers and a pounding headache to deal with along with the lack of sleep.