Shawn Mendes Imagines

Stay a Little Longer

Listens To Build A Home by The Cinematic Orchestra 

My best friend Y/n has been distant lately it makes me depressed. My mom has noticed my mood swings and made me go to a therapist. I'm taking antidepressants which don't help at all, they just make me tired. I wobbled down the stairs wearing my baggy dark blue sweatshirt, grey sweatpants, and my hair sticking out in all different places. I haven't been to gym in a while so I feel weak and sore. I decided to head over to y/n's to see why she's been ignoring me. I slowly walked up the steps and sighed knocking on the door. She opened it with a cheery smile and embraced me in a hug. I didn't hug her back. I just stood there limp. 

"Shawn? Are you okay?" she asked holding my pale cheeks.

I shook my head and moved my face from her hands. 

"No, my best friend is ignoring me" I sighed.

"I'm sorry Shawn"

"No your not?" I scoffed standing up. "You never ignore me"

"Well maybe you're just too fucking clingy and I need my space!" she said angry.

I looked at her hurt and nodded in agreement. 

"You're right, I'm the bad friend here" I said grabbing my phone from the couch and stomping out with pain in my chest.

She's never said anything so hurtful to me like that in a long time. I felt my depression overcome me as the tears fell from my eyes.

"Shawn wait" she yelled stopping at her door.

I drove home slamming the front door behind me. No one was home. I felt so alone. I only had her and now she's mad at me. I tugged at my hair yelling to the top of my lungs. I felt the tears and pain swell up in every inch of body. I slammed my weak fist into the wall not even leaving a dent. I ran upstairs to my bathroom looking at myself in the mirror. Disgusting. Stupid. All these terrible thoughts running through my mind made me sick. I looked at the bottle of antidepressants sitting on the counter and thought for a moment. I snatched it trying to get the top off frantically. Just a couple pills and I don't have to feel so alone anymore. I sighed chugging the whole bottle gagging myself. I ducked my head under the faucet drinking the tap water and slowly got into the empty bathtub. I laid my head against the white side of it and sighed in relief. I smiled one last time and felt nothing but relaxation.