Shawn Mendes Imagines

Paranoid

October 19, 2015. Haven't gone to school, probably won't for a while. Nothing feels right without meeting eyes with Cameron in class as he smirks back.

I sat on the hill by my house. I couldn't get that image out of my head. Cameron, didn't deserve that. What did he ever do? I pushed my knees into my chest deeper letting tears fall down my cheeks. I felt someone's presence behind me turning around quickly. I was so paranoid. I felt like everyone was after me at this point.

"Shawn?" I asked.

Shawn has been my neighbor for at least 16 years now. He's always been really kind to me and we always hang out. I really need him right now actually. He sighed clearing his throat.

"Hey y/n, I'm sorry about Cameron" he said kindly sitting next to me.

"I feel numb. I mean I didn't really know him but to feel his blood in my hands" I sobbed wiping tears away every time they came.

"I know, I'm so sorry" he said hugging my shoulder.

I shook my head and sighed. 

"Do you want to stay at my house tonight?" he asked.

"Yeah... my mom won't be home until next week"

He smiled and kissed my forehead. He helped me up walking with me back to the house. Shawn was caring and comforting but he has never liked Cameron, ever. He's really protective and so when Cameron got grabby, so did Shawn. I sighed leaning my head on the window. 

"Everything will be okay y/n" he said. 

I nodded. I don't know if it will. Why did that happen? A knife went straight through his chest. The police said that there was a knife in the mattress but no trail to where it came from or who's it was. 

I didn't feel safe so I slept with Shawn. I slid on his baggy sweater and my shorts. I laid my head on the soft white pillow looking at the wall.

"y/n, are you sure you're okay?" he asked worried holding my shoulder.

His touch made me shiver. I nodded.

"Can you just talk to me or something so I can sleep?" I asked.

He exhaled and began to hum sweetly in my ear. I just wanted someone to hug me so I snuggled up into him. His bare chest caving each breathe, his legs intertwining with mine made me feel safe. 

"She dropped her her sight. Unguarded, won't fight it. World can't see, she's gonna leave him blinded" he sang sweetly.

I drifted off to sleep still feeling the cold touch of Shawn's fingertips roaming my arm. 

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I fluttered my eyes open and saw Shawn laying there the exact same way Cameron was. Knife through his chest, blood pouring out of it, panting heavily. I screamed loudly sobbing again. 

I felt a pair of hands on me shooting up quickly.

"y/n! y/n, you were dreaming" Shawn said holding my shoulders.

I panted holding my head. I shook my head feeling the tears welt up inside. 

"Sh-Shawn, you died and I-I could feel the pain" I sobbed into his chest.

He calmed me down petting my hair as I cried.

"It's okay, y/n"