Marvel Imagines

Bucky Barnes- Mission

12. things you said when you thought i was asleep.

(Requested by marvels_agents100 )

Bucky refrains from moving as his door slowly swings open, then clicks shut a second later. He doesn't need to look to know who it is. Your quiet footsteps are enough for that.

"Buck?" You say quietly, but he doesn't answer and keeps his breathing steady and slow. "You're probably asleep and aren't listening, but I just.."

Bucky's bed dips as you climb on, careful not to move and wake him.

"I'm going on a mission," You continue, and Bucky can tell that you're rubbing your hands against your pants. The sound of material chaffing together confirms it. "Solo,"

At that, Bucky almost shoots up and demands that he accompanies you, but you go on.

"A-And in case I don't come back, I.. I love you."

Bucky's heart freezes and he has to stop himself from snapping his eyes open.

"There," You breathe, sounding relieved. "I said it. Happy? Well, you're not awake and won't hear me say that unless I come back. Which is, uh, a pretty slim chance. But I've accepted it and I'm ready. And I don't expect you to wait for me. That wouldn't be fair to wait for someone who's dead.." You cut yourself off and sniffle, wiping tears streaking down your cheeks. "May we meet again, Bucky Barnes."

It's deathly silent when you leave, and Bucky leaps off the bed and goes crashing to the ground. Clenching his fists, he screws his eyes shut and breathes in deeply to keep himself from running after you.

But that doesn't work for long and soon he's up and searching the tower. At some point, he comes across Tony, who for once, looks out of place as he fiddles with his phone.

Bucky asks where you had gone, and Tony answers with a sullen, "She's gone."

And he's right, because that had been the last time he saw- no, he didn't see you- heard from you.

Your mission ended up going south, leading to you getting gunned down and sending a last radio message to the tower with your voice barely audible.

"Don't forget me."