Consistency

Chapter 5: J.R's P.O.V

Waking up to Melanie in my arms was what I missed, but today I was waking up with cold arms and an empty bed. I missed her no doubt, but if I told her my dilemma there would be no way she would be able to handle it. It would break her heart, so the best option was to just stay quiet about it til it was the right time.

I turned to check my phone, when my phone lit up the time read 11:30am. "Damn" I thought to myself, Melanie had already taken her lunch and was most likely back at work. I laid on my back looking at the ceiling, "Maybe I should pop up and surprise her with flowers?" I shook my head in disagreement against that idea. After I left her hanging last night, she wouldn't want to see me.

"What was wrong with me?" I huffed. I was 28, worked at Hot 97 FM, the most popular radio station in New York City, and I could have any girl I wanted in the clubs, but I was sitting here thinking about her. I snapped out of my thoughts, before forcing  myself to get up.

Getting ready for the day every move I made, I had Melanie in my mind. Having lunch alone was like a slap in the face, usually Melanie would be here occupying my time with goofy conversation and intellectual thoughts. I got a phone call that snapped me out of my daze. Looking down at my phone I realized it was my mother, before setting my phone back down on my counter. I didn't wanna deal with her opinions on my situation at this moment. My mother meant well but her opinions turned into lectures, which turned into 60 minute or more phone calls.

I stood up and walked around my counter into my kitchen before pouring out my milk into the sink. I grabbed my IPhone and scrolled through it til I got to Melanie's number. I hesitated at first, but I started out with small walk with her. 

"Hey" 

At this point I wouldn't be mad if she didn't text me back. Scrolling through my other text messages, there was a message from Marquelle:

"Yo man, there's a party going down at the 40/40 club tomorrow night let's check it out. Ladies, drinks, good music. What more could we want?"

I thought about it for a minute, I did need a night to get my mind off the bullshit that was going on in my life.

"Yea bro, I need a night out"

I sent him back before locking my phone and heading to my room to get dressed. As I got down the hall to my room I slipped on a black t-shirt, my dark blue jeans, and my black Jordans. At that moment I heard my doorbell rang. As I got to the door I looked through my peephole and noticed who it was before rolling my eyes and opening the door. 

"Yes Krystal, I'm busy what do you need?"

I looked at the women that stood in front of me holding a curly-haired light skinned toddler in her arms.

"You're busy but its your day with your daughter or did you forget?"

The toddler looked at me and her eyes lit up. I totally forgot that I was taking Leah today.

"Tell daddy hi Leah, Mommy will see you later." Krystal handed Leah over to me as Leah grabbed onto my shirt.

"Oh yeah by the way I need more money." She demanded as I grabbed the bag from her.

"What the hell Krystal I just gave your ass money last week", I shot back.

"It wasn't enough, Leah needs clothes, shoes, pull-ups, all that is not cheap. Look Jay, just bring the money when you drop her off later. Please"

I wanted to tell Krystal to fuck off, but I didn't wanna deal with her loud ass today. Boy of I could choose a different baby mama, God knows I would've

"Yeah whatever Krystal."

She smiled, "Thanks Jay, by the way you still fin-"

I closed the door before she could get out another word. She was nothing but a hoe, i bet she was going to go strip right now. That's where I met her, Ms. Kandy Kane herself aka Krystal. Dont get me wrong Krystal was cute but she wasnt the girl of my dreams. It was just one drunk night two years ago, i brought her here, and things went on from there. I had no intentions of being with her, let alone having a baby with her. The crazy part is that she waited two years to tell me she was mine. Now I know how Chris Brown feels.

But this was my daughter.

I put Leah onto her feet and she ran and jumped on the couch, I couldn't help but smile at her.

I was happy nonetheless to be a daddy, but I wish I would've known earlier so I didn't have to break Melanie's heart. Me and Melanie never talked about kids, so i dont know how she would feel about all this especially since I have a baby mama.  I knew it wouldn't go well. But I shook that though out of my head quick as I cradled Leah into a hug.

At this moment no one else mattered but Leah. I wanted to know my daughter and I never want her to grow up without a father. At this point I want to do anything to make her happy no matter what it took. This is my daughter and I would be the best father I could be.

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