The last thing I remember was hugging Holden, fighting her took a lot out of me and I hurt all over. Waking up I remember my surroundings, the smell of Moroccan spice and chocolate filled my senses, I grit my teeth in pain as I try to sit up, all my muscles feel like they're on fire.
I'm sorry. she whispered to me, I wasn't speaking to her not yet. She whimpered inside me.
Looking around, I was in Holden's room, more important in his bed, looking around Holden wasn't in the room, couch had a pillow and a comforter on it. I couldn't help but smile at that, after all this time and he can still surprise me. Flipping the covers off me, I inspected myself, I was in one of his shirts and shorts, he must have loved that.
Managing to make it out of bed and into the bathroom, I looked like hell, I pulled my hair into a messy bun and splashed water on my face, lifting up my shirt I could see the physical struggle that went on inside me last night, my ribs were all bruised from the internal struggle and my joints and muscles ached in pain but they got better as I walked. Stepping slowly and carefully down the stairs I made it to the second floor without keeling over in pain,
"Rough night last night" I turned my head and there was Kyle, standing with no shirt on and just track pants, his chin length brown hair in his eyes.
"Uh hi" I said suddenly all shy, "Look about last night, I kind of lost control, it wasn't me" he just smiled,
"I know and I won't hold it against you" I gave a small smile, "but for the record, you are one hell of a kisser" now I wish my hair was out so it could cover my blushing cheeks,
"What are you doing here anyway?" I asked,
"I live here, have for a few months now, my mother is in the Alpha's favour" he said it like it was supposed to impress me,
"hmm" was all I said, "You know where Holden is?"
"In the study I think, you know the way?" I smirked at him before nodding and heading in the direction of the study.
I struggled down the next flight of stairs but I managed to make it down in one piece, using the wall as support I made it to the Alpha's study. Taking a breath or two before I went to knock, but before I could the door opened and Holden was standing there, he moved out of the way to let me come in,
"How did you sleep?" he asked in a calm voice,
"Probably better than you" I smiled, still not facing him I examined the Alpha's office, it was dark and lots of red wood in it, books on pack law lined the walls, and a huge window looking out into the forest. Soon my smile disappeared and tears were replacing it, what was wrong with me? I never used to cry now it seems like I'm crying all the time.
"What's the matter?" Holden rushed to my side and forced me to look at him,
"Everything" I told him and he pulled me over to one of the couches, "me, you everything is wrong, it's just...wrong" I sobbed, "It wasn't meant to be this way" I rested my head at the nape of his neck while he tried to comfort me,
"I'm sorry for everything I did, Lily, I truely am" I knew he was telling the truth, he had been telling the truth for a long time now and I just haven't been listening.
"I know and I'm sorry, for the way I spoke to you the other day" I pulled back and looked at him,
"You have every right" he said,
"No I didn't, I was angry and hurt, the pain I went through, I wished it upon you, upon Amber but that pain was so strong, so real I wouldn't wish it upon either of you, I wouldn't want anyone to go through it" his eyes turned to pain and I felt horrible.
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The Infinite White
Teen Fiction*Edited Lily was scorned by her Mate, after returning home to her family and the troubles she thought she left behind she discovers that more trouble will soon follow. A new threat appears and Lily must decide between Love, Fate and Duty because sh...
