Backspace | Kim Taehyung

thirty

A/N: if this book ever reaches 100k reads istg i will skin myself alive

edit: 16/04/18 CHAPTERS 30-36 republished. (;

January 15, 2016

6:03 pm

Miyun: Hey, it seems like it's been so long.

Miyun: You were last seen on January 9th, 8:44 pm.

Taehyung typing...

Miyun: where have ya been

Miyun: wat were u doing? ):

Taehyung typing...

Miyun: Do you hate me?

Miyun: I have a feeling you do.

Miyun: I was probably dreaming about what happend that midnight on New Year's Day.

Taehyung typing...

Miyun: I get it. It's either you're writing a whole essay or just taking back your words again.

Miyun: Look I'm trying to be normal and serious today. I even changed your contact name into something serious that doesn't make me laugh anymore.

Miyun: Okay I'll wait.

Taehyung typing...

6:33 pm

Taehyung: You're correct, I hate you more than anything. Stop doing things for me, stop caring for me, stop making special and just stop talking to me. I don't want you in my life again, ever.

Taehyung: making me feel special*

Miyun: what?

Taehyung: I just.. need to hate you.

Taehyung: I couldn't let you stay, Miyun. You know what I found out last night? I found out that I could ruin you. I found that I'm capable of ruining your beautiful self right now. If I keep on getting closer to you, it's either you become in the same state as me or you might look at me as if I'm someone who could ruin your happiness forever.

Taehyung: Do you know what you are? You're this girl I like who grew up with a supportive family and a perfect life. I don't want mine to get in the way.

Taehyung: And yes, you do make me happy, but maybe I don't deserve happy at all. The happy and the sad should stay apart from one another, they couldn't mix.

Taehyung: Maybe I should keep all my sadness and my problems to myself.

7:08 pm

Miyun: what do you know about me to call me that? ; message failed to send ;

Miyun: me? happy? ; message failed to send ;

Miyun: Is it funny how I know that you don't actually mean that. I'm smarter than you think, Taetae. you typed and deleted your messages lots of times and even if i didnt know what they say, i know theyre better than whats coming from you now. you dont have to keep hiding, isolate and pity yourself from anyone, taehyung. why do you always do that? what are the things youve been doing when you were gone? youre forever impenetrable. ; message failed to send ;

Miyun: i don't get any what you're saying, you know? isn't that too vague? why can't you let me be there anymore? can you explain further? ; message failed to send ;

Miyun: well even if you're that impenetrable, I'm still in love with you. That's something I want you to know but I can't tell you. I'm being such a coward right now, turning off the wifi so that i cant tell you this. ; message failed to send ;

Miyun: Okay. I'll stop talking to you. Thanks for being honest.

Miyun: But do you know what this makes me think?

Miyun: It makes me mad.

Miyun: I'm mad at you, Taehyung. I'm mad that you still don't trust me. I don't know what happened to you, I thought we were doing well.

Miyun: But to tell you, you're making a pretty dumb decision to get rid of me as if i never made an impact in your life or anything. you're not making things better, taehyung. i'm mad at you because i care about you alot ; message failed to send ;

Miyun: Goodbye.