control ;; phan

kiss

-phil's pov-
~*~
it was all becoming
too much.
the thought of pj
coming to take me
away at any moment
was killing me.
i couldn't live without
dan.
sitting on his couch beside
him, i couldn't help but
let slip the tears welling
up in my eyes.
in an attempt to hide them,
dan noticed my sniffling and
moved closer.
"ph- phil, what's wrong?"
worry flooded into his
eyes. "are you okay?"
i opened my mouth,
trying to choke out words,
but i just couldn't.
i collapsed on him –
tired of holding back tears,
i let go.
i had tried for so long
to not cry, but now i
couldn't care less.
i cried,
and cried,
and cried.
dan pulled me closer to
him, holding me tightly
against his chest.
the smell of vanilla made
me feel almost at home;
made me feel safe.
he murmured words
in a soothing fashion,
pressing kisses to my
forehead as he did so.
"it'll be okay, phil, i
promise."
"but how do you know?
you can't possibly know
that!"
"i don't know if that's the case,
but i'll make sure it is."
i looked up at him.
his eyes were glistening
with what looked to be
tears. did i do that?
was i the cause of that?
"phil, i promise you, i
will do everything in my
power to make sure
that nothing else bad
happens to you."
he held out his pinky.
"i give you my word."
hesitantly, i shook his
pinky and he chuckled.
"remember, if i break that
promise, you get to break
my pinkies."
i giggled at his remark before
we both fell silent again.
dan continued to hold me and
i, him.
i'm not sure what came over me
in that moment, but as we
sat content in the quiet, i
shifted in position.
"phil, are you o-"
"i love you, dan."
"you- you love me?"
i nodded.
dan couldn't help but
let his smile grow larger,
and larger upon his face.
"i- i love you too, phil.
oh god, i love you so much,
phil, you have no idea how
long i've waited for this
moment!"
i blushed profusely,
my cheeks burning.
"do- do you think we
could maybe, y'know,
re-do that kiss?"
i had no clue where these
words were coming from,
or the confidence for that
matter.
"oh god yes."
and with that, his lips met
my own.
it wasn't forced;
it wasn't rushed.
it was pure;
gentle;
real.
i smiled against his lips.
"i love you, dan."
"i love you too, phil.
i always have,
and i always will."

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A/N: well you asked for longer and for more phan so here you go :–) I think there'll only be one or two more chapters and depending on those chapters, we'll see about a sequel ;–)