Afraid • l.h

Chapter 38 • "Pleased to see me?"

Tilly's POV

After mine and Ben's talk I decide it is time I go home and so I hand the keys back to my mother and head for the nearest bus stop. Once I am on the bus and I plug my headphones in that I thankfully found in my pocket. I find myself gazing out of the window and it soon turns into a stare until I spot something familiar on the road. A car. Luke's car.

I hide my self as much as possible in the hope he won't see me until it is my stop. Getting off the bus I decide against going and getting a coffee from the coffeehouse as its a risk I'm not willing to take.

Within ten minutes of getting inside I have changed, eaten and had my music blasting through my house speakers. Somehow every lyric of every song found its way to Luke. I couldn't get him off my mind. His past was his past and I get that he might have changed however he could always go back and that scared me. If there was one thing I was afraid of it was being left. I don't know how I would handle it if Luke cheated on me with a one night stand.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. Whoever it is is lucky I heard them as my music was quite loud.

I hesitate on whether to open the door or not and pray to god that it's not Luke.

"Hey Tils." Michael says.

"Oh my thank the lord it's you."

"Please to see me?" He laughs.

"Of course I am but I'm just glad you wasn't Luke." I say in relief.

"About him." He says.

"Oh no." I say.

"You got to give him a chance to explain."

"But I don't want to Mikey." I pout.

"Why?"

"Because I'm afraid he'll hurt me by leaving. Don't make me." I say but Michael just gives me a disapproving look.

"Come on what's the worse that could happen?"

"He could return to his old self and leave me for someone much prettier leaving me hurt for the rest of my life and with hopeless thoughts of never being able to fall in love again."

"Did you just imply you have fallen in love with Luke?" Mikey smiles.

"No I did not." Did I?

"Okay whatever. Just let him explain even if it changes nothing you'll know why." He says and stands up to leave.

"Hey Michael?" I say and he turns around to face me.

"Yeah." He simply replies.

"Can you stay and watch movies with me?" I ask.

"Do you have food?" He laughs.

"Of course I'll go get some. Chose a movie, top draw on the left." I say walking past him and into the kitchen.

I really needed time with my best friend right now. He understands both of us, meaning me and Luke. He is able to sort things out and reason with me when things aren't going well.