C h a p t e r 3
E x N u m b e r T h r e e ?
Ok...
So who is Gabriel?
He is a typical guy with a typical dream – be typical. All along then, I could see him as someone I would not dare take a second look with. Sweet-talker, romantic, artistic; very typical for a guy who is obsessed to nothing but his music. To make the story short, Gabriel Elivera was my first.
Holly crap, he was my first...
It was the time everything was in pure bliss. Wala akong inisip kundi ang kung gaano ako ka swerte at siya ang lalaking minahal ko at nagmamahal sa akin. Not a single time did I ever think about nothing but to keep it that way.
Pero hindi nagtagal ay pinukaw ako ng isang malakas na sampal sa mukha ng katotohanang hindi lang pala ako ang nag-iisang babae sa buhay niya.
Kung ano ako ka bitter kay Christian ay mas malala ako kay Gabriel. That dude is the primary reason why my belief of forever is put into great doom, dahil siya ang pinakaunang lalaking minahal ko at pinakaunang ring lalaking nagparamdam sa akin kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng unrequited love.
After all this years I still could not forget how a little naive and clueless Iya, who is such a big fan of Prince Charmings and fairytales, became such a big hopeless and pathetic crybaby when this supposed Prince Charming is only just that – charming. I was eighteen then, and that was the moment I thought for once, I am capable of love. I was so devoted for him being the first that I dreamed of him also being my last.
Pero what the hell... Sige Iya, dream pa more.
Having to meet the first and the last was such a headache. Ok na sana na si Christian lang dahil somehow, hindi ako ganoon ka apektado maliban na lang sa pikon ako dahil sa hinagisan niya ako ng bola sa mukha. Our break up was because of priorities. I was bitter because I was not his priority.
Pero damn, si Gabriel?
Seven years later ay ganoon pa rin!
Such a flirt. Such a manwhore. Such an asshole.
Ibang level ang pagiging fvckboy at sising-sisi talaga akong nagging boyfriend ko siya. At triple ang kabitteran ko sa kanya dahil manloloko talaga ang genes na bumubuo sa maitim niyang budhi.
Bakit? Bakit sa lahat ng pwedeng malasin sa mundo bakit ako pa, bakit?!
Hindi ko na alintana kung parang isa akong batang umiiyak-iyak at paggulong gulong na nagdadrama sa kama. Quotang-quota na ako sa araw na 'to, daragdag pa ang isang 'to?!
Leche, kulot na kulot na talaga ang bangs ko dahil talagang mawawala na ko sa ulirat.
Just yesterday, ex number one and my latest ex, after long months and years of disappearance, suddenly came rushing back and haunting the crap out of me. Hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko, now that I could not even have the urge to get out and enjoy the sun outside for the threat of seeing one of those goons is on the loose.
Nakakainggit na hindi ako nakasama sa banana-boating at island hoping nila Therese, Kath at Bella dahil sa tindi ng hang-over ko. Hindi talaga makatarungan ang mga bartenders sa Havana dahil hindi mo aakalaing hard drink pala ang iniinom mong ordinaryong fruit blended shots. Hindi ko na matadaan kung nakailan ako kagabi liban pa sa take out kong bote sa kwarto.
