shawn mendes imagines

goodbye

My fingers wrapped around Shawn's for the last time as I walked upon his roof, the shingles creaking against my faded converse. I sat down next to his chimney, dangling my feet along the tough brick of his roof, tightening my grip on Shawn when he followed my actions. The neighborhood was pitch black at this time of day, some cars occasionally roaming through the roads, ready to go to work, but other then that, it was just Shawn and I, ready to speak of what we've been dying to say.

"It's been a while, huh?" I asked, breaking the awkward tension for a quick second before it turning back to normal. My attempt of humor made the tension thick.

Shawn only stared ahead, slowly untangling our fingers before returning his hand back on top of his lap. "I know why you brought me here, _____."

I took a breath, scooting away from Shawn and closer to the chimney. "Maybe we can fix it, Shawn."

He looked down with a small frown (caLL ME DR. SEUSS W/ THAT RHYME DOe) and shook his head. "Some things can't be fixed, you know."

"Oh." Was all I could manage to say. I felt so vulnerable, like a little girl in the middle of a gang, I felt so weak. I've been trying so hard, and to hear those words just didn't feel good to the heart.

Shawn sighed, shifting his body toward me. "It's not that I don't want to be with you, _____, but it just...doesn't feel right anymore."

"So, you want to break up with me?" My voice cracked, vulnerability taking the best of me as it took every ounce of strength away from me. I was never a strong girl. I was never the girl who didn't care about her feelings. I cared. I cared too much, when he didn't.

Shawn stared down at his fingers, crossed in between his legs, and simply...nodded. "I'm breaking up with you, _____. I'm sorry."

My heart broke as a fairytale would say. Shattering in to millions of pieces that jabbed in to my skin like knives. Spending years filling him up with any love I can give and I finally get my consequence. I finally get hit with the last brutal cut. Our bond was done.

"I'm sorry I wasn't right for you." I whispered. Maybe I was scared to speak, or maybe I couldn't speak any louder. I couldn't talk. I couldn't think.

"Hey, hey," He spoke louder than I had, but not as loud as normal. Shawn grabbed my hand with one of his, placing the other on my cheek, wiping a tear that managed to slip away. I could see his guilt in his moonlit eyes. "You're a great girl, _____. A beautiful, courageous, selfless, loving girl. You've been a great girlfriend, and just think of it in this way: I'm letting you go, because it'd be selfish of me to keep you for myself. I love you, more than you think, right now. I'll always love you, and maybe sometime in the future, when the time is right, we'll meet again, and I promise you things will turn out better; but for now, I'm letting you go."

"Goodbye, Shawn."

He gave me a weak smile, leaning closer to collide our lips in to a soft and lingering kiss I would never forget. "Goodbye, ______."

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this idea was so much better in my head but the execution just wASNT THERE AND I CRY

y'all should request something so I don't give u some trash like this :'))

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sas