Never Stop Loving Edited Version

Chapter 6 - Deep Thoughs

Never Stop Loving

Chapter 6.

Ryan and I were cruising down the highway hand in hand. I don't really know how he could drive this way, with one hand and all. Beat's me. I can barely drive even with two hands. Wow, why am I even thinking about driving right now? I obviously should be thinking about how Ryan like's me! I mean who wouldn't be over excited for this, the guy you've liked forever like's you back,now come on! Everything is going great right now, I'm only focusing about the positives, not the negatives.

You don't think there's negative's? I know I don't have to go to Ann (That whole ask each other thing was a little true because she did ask me about him in 9th grade) but why wouldn't I? I don't want some dude, an amazing, loving, and irresistible guy ruin our friendship. Just thinking if she say's no is making me want to burst out in tears. This whole thing isn't going according to plan today.

What will Ann think? What if she think's I'm only doing this to hurt her? I did just find out about her feeling's for Ryan today and about Ryan's feeling's for me. To make matter's even worse she could think I'm doing this to piss her off even more then she already is! What the hell am I supposed to do!? Ugh. But for now, I need to forget about this and just focus on the positives.

"What's wrong? You seem sad?" Fuck, why does this boy no me so well? I'm like an open book to him, why must it be that way?

"Hmm. Oh, nothing.I'm f-f-fine." Man, why'd I have to stutter? Way to give the whole 'Oh yeah I'm fine thing away...good job M, good job.

"Mariah, there's something wrong I can tell. You can tell me, it'll be alright." At that moment I almost started bawling. This may be a really stupid reason to lie but no, not for me. When you're put in this situation you'll understand how I'm feeling. Why can't I just forget about all of this 'love' stuff? Why can't life be easier? Why can't I just not tell Ann about how Ry like's me. Actually, I can do that! No wait wait, I'm not going to do that. I can't just betray him like that. But why can't I? Ann has been so weird over the year's. It's like something's gotten into her lately.

I've never told anyone about this , but Sophomore year Ann kissed me. Yes, I said kissed me. She told me she was bi-sexual and that she had the slightest bit of feeling's for me.

No, I cant do that..she can't help that she liked me and kissed me. Wow what am I thinking. Nothing could ever make me turn on her, ever.

"Really, nothing's wrong. Trust me on this one." I gave him a quick smile.

RYAN'S P.O.V

This relationship is going to be good. I can sense it. Let's hope Ann say's yes. Even though I doubt she'll say no! I could get used to this.