Do you have a right to play mind games with me ? Is that the question? I ask .. he says I'm not playing mind games with you he says in his mean voice. .. it's working keep it up thick boy !! Yes u are Jay!!! Your playing the I don't want you but be dam if I'm stand here and let another have what's mine .or was mine . YOU CAN NOT KEEP ME SINGLE FOR LIFE TO MAKE U FEEL BETTER. I scream at him .. he jumps up from the table and screams back at me IM NOT PLAYING GAMES WITH UR ASS !! UR RIGHT I DONT WANNA SEE U WITH OTHER GUYS. ITS BEEN 3 MONS. ARE YOU OVER US THAT FAST .. ARE YOU READY TO DATE ? CUZ I STILL FEEL LIKE IM DYING INSIDE EVERY TIME I SEE UR FACE . DOES THIS NoT EFFECT U AT ALL . LOOK AT ME . If u yell at me I'll look at the floor every single time. It's who I am .. I'm thinking ... I look at him he's serious. mad and it scares me .. I say Jay u told me u was fucking another girl 4 weeks into me being gone. You can move on that fast but 13 weeks is too soon for me ? He says I wasnt in a relationship.!! I'm not either !! U were! I look at him. He says oh you didn't think I knew about Matt being in Italy ! I look away quick and walk away. He walks to me and grabs my arm .. look at me ! he says loud . I look at him . You were in a fucking relationship! !!! Melanie! ! Your right I was in a fucking relationship. CUZ it was fucking !!! It meant nothing. You know what u Said. U wasn't gonna go with out sex!!!! I wasn't either. . Don't seems fair does it. U can get laid by any chick on the fucking planet and I'm pose to wollow in pain and have no comfort at all. I DID NOT HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH ANY FEMALE IN THE PAST 13 WEEKS. He yells .. YOU JUST FUCKED THEM HUH ? I ask . YES I DID FUCK ONE .. he said . And my heart fell out .. I DID TO .I FUCKED ONE .. SO WE EVEN NOW ? HUH WE GONNA SEE IF WE CAN MATCH EACH OTHERS NUMBERS .. WHAT GAME ARE WE PLAYING NOW JASON .. HUH ? He sits down. He's got his hands on either side of his head. .. he says I can't Melanie . I can't . .. yes I can't either Jay get out ! I say. And I walk to my room. I'm sobbing beyond control .. he sits behind me on the bed . We need to talk this out calmly please .. I went to jump up .but he put his hand on my shoulder . Yeah I wasn't able to move . Melanie kill the dramatic act please. I can't anymore. Just sit here . Let's talk . He says in this death tone .that definitely caught my attention. I turn and look at Jay hard. Jay I really don't wanna do this , I mean u left me . U have Said more then once you don't want to be with me .. I'm sry we did each other wrong . I'm sry that I turned out to be the town whore. You shouldn't have been so good. Maybe I wouldn't have needed it . I don't know . But you have made it super clear you don't want me now that I'm not so pure .. Jay say Melanie I love you , I do. And I want the very best for you. And showing ur ass all over the place isn't very respectful if ur self first, then there is my dad who sees u as his daughter, and you walk around showing him ur ass. Men are visual. We get turned on by looking at women .. even if we shouldn't we do ! We can't help it. It's not in our power not to ... it just pops up . I just want you to respect ur self and not temp men. It could cause you trouble .. OK Jay ok I get it . I made a mistake. I'll wear a turtle neck from now .. melanie stop !! You have a problem with anyone trying to tell you a better way. You think it is me wanting to control you. But it's me wanting to protect you ! Why do u ? I ask .. because I love you. He says. Even if we are not together , I'll always love you and protect you . You'll always be mine Melanie. . I look at him . So ull always be mine ? I ask he looks at me in pain he whispers yes Melanie you will always have my heart . That's yours . Then why can't we just be together I ask .. his pain face still there .. he says maybe some day we can come back together .. OK I say .. Melanie look at me . I've turned away from him .. I can't Jay. I whisper I'm gonna cry . I'm trying so hard not to .. he says please baby . And I felt it .
