Change is a given

Chapter.12

After an hour I finally went back inside but stopped when everybody was sitting at the table with sad faces

“what happened?” sam stood next to me with a hand on my shoulder

 “something happened to luke. He went upstairs to his room and hasn’t came out since and someone we had check on him said he was cutting himself” I was shocked but masked my emotion and shrugged my shoulders

“not my problem” frank stood up growling

“you can do something though, you’re the only one he’s going to listen to” I glared at him

“if he wants to be stupid, let him. Im not gunna stop him even if I wanted too” sam looked at me disappointed

“I never thought you could turn into a heartless bitch eva. wouldn’t you want someone to stop you when you were cutting?” I sighed and looked up at him

“im not a heartless bitch but I hated it every time in the past that shawn stopped me. I resented him for months until I finally came to the conclusion that he was helping me not trying to hurt me. And luke deserves the pain he’s in because its only been a couple days since he was rejected by me and I had to live with that for 4 fucking years and counting” I started walking away when frank pulled my arm stopping me

“please eva, I havent ever seen him this depressed at least do something or try to do something about it” I was getting frustrated

 “fine I’ll get him to stop but that’s it. If your hoping I’ll except him anytime soon your sadly mistaken” I handed the kids to troy and sam then walked upstairs to lukes room. His door was locked and he wasn’t answering to me so I stood back and kicked his door in. he shot up and looked at me

“what the hell do you want eva, are you here to rub it in that you don’t want me?” I sat on his bed and sighed

“no luke that’s not why im here” he glared and sat on his computer chair across the room

“then why are you here?” I looked up at him and slightly smiled

“I may not want to accept you now but that doesn’t mean I don’t care for you and I want you hurt.” he looked surprised

 “so what your saying is you care for me?” I sighed out of frustration

“yes luke that’s what im saying. I care for you and I don’t want you hurt” he smiled and sat next to me on the bed

“if you care for me then why wont you except me?” I hate situations like this

 “do you really want to know? And if I tell you, you cant be an ass and act immature and no more fucking cutting” he smiled and nodded his head

“when I first found out you were my mate I was excited but then you rejected me and it was the worst kind of pain I have ever felt” his smile faded and he looked kind of guilty

 “I tried anything to get that pain away but everything I tried never worked until I found this root that would allow me to cut without healing so I put it on my blade and I kept cutting because when my blood flowed it felt as if the tightness in my chest was loosening. Then when I was training it helped too but when I was kidnapped I thought it would hurt worse than the pain you caused. In reality nothing that has ever happened to me compared to the pain you caused because as you use to say I was a fat, ugly, pathetic excuse of an alpha. I learned to get over you but then I come back and you want me because I don’t look the same anymore, and don’t say it isn’t true because if I was still that girl back then you wouldn’t want me like you do now” he looked torn