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*one week later*
I swallowed spit and took a deep breath while day dreaming outside of my windshield.
"Damn."
I thought to myself.
This is real.
Pauline is dead.
She's gone forever.
A man is left without a wife.
A son is left without a mother.
A mother is left without a child.
I folded my lips and closed my eyes. This is truly heartbreaking. This memorial will be truly sad I just know it.
"Ready baby?"
Dorian asked while clasping his fingers on mines.
I sighed and nodded.
"No I'll meet you inside. Can you save me a seat?"
"I don't want to leave you alone."
He whined.
"Dorian I'll be fine I just want to be alone for a moment ok?"
I said softly while reaching for his face with my hand.
He sighed and gave in.
He leaned forward and gave me a kiss. I pulled away and looked down.
"I'll be waiting ok?"
I nodded and kept my eyes lowered.
He left the vehicle and went inside the church. I sighed and ran my fingers in my curls.
I'm so irritable. I have so much guilt built up inside of me, that it has me thinking I shouldn't be here. I wasn't there for her when she wanted me around. I gave her nothing but poor excuses because I wanted to grant Michaels wish.
I don't feel like I appreciated her enough for her damn near saving my life because I shut her out. I listened to everyone else besides myself.
I could've pursued a friendship with my ex's wife, right?
I rolled my eyes and shook my head.
Who am I kidding? No I couldn't.
I have too much of a conscience to not have a care in the world. That would've bothered me pursuing a friendship without truth.
Sort of like my relationship with Dorian there isn't truth in it. He still doesn't know about Michael. Because I haven't brought myself to tell him. I simply can't. I don't have any time for foolishness.
It was a horrible experience with Anthony and I don't need to revisit the matter again at least not with Dorian. I care too much about him.
I can't do it. I can't be here. Maybe I should go.
I gasped at a white dove that sat on my side mirror. He began cooing and looking at me. My eyes watered as I held my hand over my chest.
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