Alex (boy)
I already stabbed my bacon a couple of times. Sitting here in the cafe we used to spend our free time with eased the feeling I am currently feeling right now.
Does she miss me too? Isang linggo na ang nakakaraan.
Namimiss ko na siya and that fucking dream has been bugging me. Hindi na ako madalas tumatambay sa kanila.
What's the point? Baka nga dinadala niya si Caleb dun eh. Baka nga sila na eh.
Hindi na siya nagtetext, tumatawag. Sinusubukan ko siyang iwasan sa school pero bakit every dismissal nakikita ko siya?
Nakikita ko sila.
Jealousy has been killing me. Stabbing me from behind over and over.
I decided to give mercy to this bacon and left the cafe and went on a ride. Giving my bike a couple of paddles.
I feel the air whipping through my hair. It's freezing here and I don't know where I'm going.
Burnham will be a good place. Madaming tao doon. Hindi ako mapapansin doon.
Nung makarating na ako sa entrance dumeretso ako sa Solibao para makapagpahinga nang bigla akong nakita, hindi ko maalis tingin ko saka nila. Pagharap ko may poste na. It's too late para umilag. The post and my bike collided with a loud sound causing me to fall.
Alex (girl)
Alex is here. He saw us, his eyes were glued to me. I sat frozen, unable to think.
He's here, Alex is here.
Pagharap niya sa dinadaanan niya may poste sa harap niya causing him to collide with it.
Natumba siya, I heard the impact.
Shit
Alex, gusto kong lumapit sa kanya. Gusto kong tignan kung okay lang siya.
I stood and walked straight to him. He's lying on the ground.
Damn, may mga galos siya. His knee is bleeding. His arms were bruised.
I crouched down to examine him more.
"Oh my gad Alex. Are you okay I said cupping his face" he froze at the contact and pulled his face away from my touch.
"Wala lang to sa nararamdaman ko ngayon" he said bleakly, his jaw clenched and his hands curled into a tight fist.
He stood up and picked up his bike and left.
"Wala lang to sa nararamdaman ko ngayon"
What does he mean?
May posibilidad kaya na.......
Naglakad ako papunta sa table namin ni Caleb.
"I, I need to go. I'm so sorry" I apologized to Caleb.
"Hatid na kita" he offered. "No, I'm fine. Just go home and, and....." I was lost for words.
Alex's words rumbled with my thoughts and I don't think I can think. Not with Caleb around.
"Sshh, okay. I will. Mag-ingat ka ha?" he reassured and kissed my forehead.
He smiled once more and we parted ways. He's been a good company. Naging supportive siya nung araw ng contest namin sa Manila. He traveled that far to watch us.
Everyone thought na kami, actually hindi ko alam kung ano kami. Hindi naman siya humihingi ng kapalit. Hindi din naman siya nanliligaw.
He don't deserve what I just did but I really need to clear my thoughts.
--
On my way home, he sent me a text.
*Let's end this charade we're doing Lex. Icut na muna natin tong communication natin. Hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko pa*
No, no, no.
Tears are brimming in my eyes. I don't want to.
Ayoko. Alex please.
I was sobbing when I reached my room. Shara was concerned. She kept knocking in my room.
He's the only thing I did right for all I care. Ayokong mawala siya. No, no hindi pwede.
I cried myself to sleep that afternoon.
--
2:30 am, my side clock says.
I forcely open my eyes. It's dark in my room. So dark,
Alex
Naalala ko siya, he's gone.
Ito ang nakukuha ko sa pagiging in denial ko. I just wanted to keep myself from him. It's not possible for him to like me.
Not until.......
Not until he told me that. What if.......
I quickly typed a text and sent it to him. I know he's fast asleep right now but I'm hoping.
My past won't ruin what I have right now. Not this time. I'm not running anymore.
*usap tayo*
Alex (boy)
I watch as few vehicles pass by. Tilted my head to watch the stars above.
Pinagsisisihan ko yung tinext ko kay Alex kanina. I don't think its possible for me to do that.
Madaling araw na pero nasa balkonahe pa ako ng bahay. Everyone's asleep.
Tulog na kaya siya?
I heard a ping and knew it was my phone. I went inside to retrieve it.
*usap tayo* its her, she's still awake.
Magrereply ba ako?
*meet me sa malapit na highschool jan*
I took my hoodie and beanie with me. Wore it as fast as I could and ran down the road to meet her.
Nang makarating na ako sa gate, wala pa siya. So I opened the gate and went inside in one of the nipa huts we built when I was 2nd year highschool here.
It's dark and no one's going to come here.
*andito na ako sa gate*
I didn't reply but stood up to go see her.
She's wearing a sweat shirt and pj pants. She has her hair down.
Hindi ko maaninanag mukha niya kasi madilim but I heard her sniff.
Has she been crying?
We sat down opposite to each other.
Now I can see her better in the dark. Her eyes were puffy and so is her nose.
"Have you been crying?" I ask obnoxiously.
She bowed her head even more. To hide her face from my searching eyes.
"No" her voice was raspy from crying.
"What do you want?" I ask gaining courage to speak.
She stared intently in my eyes. Face wearing a deep scowl.
"You, what do you want?"
**
Midterms is here guys. Baka hindi na ako makakaupdate ng sunod sunod. Pero who knows magkaroon ako ng spare time.
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