heartbreaker - j.b.[discontinued for the time being]

seventeen

audrey

i didn't care how unprofessional it was, i canceled every shoot and runway i had this week because i was too torn up about justin. i know i finalized the break up with him but it felt necessary. or i was just doing what everyone else thought was right. sighing, i stand up to go to my kitchen. being back in pittsburgh made me feel somewhat calm and collected. avery stayed in cali with maejor, and i didn't protest it.

calum: you okay?

audrey: for the third day in a row, im fine calum ... i just need to be home for a while

calum: if you need anything you can call me :)

audrey: i know, thank you ❤️

then i opened instagram and the first post that came up was a picture of justin and his mom out in cali. i stared at the picture, at justin. he looked happy, so that's a good sign right?

audrey: did i make the right choice

calum: about what

calum: justin?

audrey: yeah ...

calum: i don't know, it's whatever you feel. you're going to miss him regardless, you love him

audrey: i know 😞

calum: talk to him that's the only thing you can do. that talk you two had at the amusement park wasn't the talk justin intended on having

audrey: how do you know?

calum: i just do, now talk to him

sighing, i leave his messages and scrolled down until i saw justin😔❤️.

audrey: can we talk?

he answered just as i was typing 'when you have the chance.'

justin: about what?

audrey: our break up ... the first time

audrey: or just us in general

justin: i'd rather we talk over the phone and i'm with my mom right now, so can i call you later

audrey: ofc

justin: and audrey...

audrey: yea?

justin: go back out to la and do that runway show. we're not together but im still with you through this and everything

audrey: i canceled though

justin: they're refusing to let hailey model so you might be able to get it back

audrey: okay, ty

he didn't reply after that which made me feel some type of way but he wasn't obligated to. and he's with his mom so he might not be on his phone much.

exhaling heavily, i stand up and started to pack my clothes, while calling the studio back to see if i could get my runway spot back. if i couldn't, i'll just visit maejor and avery and see if i can reschedule the photo shoots sooner.

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another filler because my body hurts, it's literally like 80 degrees in my room and everyone's giving me an attitude 😒