He doesn't want me

Chapter 38-Plan

I woke up early in the morning a plan in my mind, I got ready in a hurry and Raven was about to knock on my door when I flung it open

"Hey" I said and he raised his eyebrow at me "Hey" he said before tilting his head "What are you up too..?" he asked and I smiled at him

After breakfast I told Raven about my plan and he shook his head "You're going to get yourself hurt" he said and I smiled at him nodding my head "I know Rave...I know" I whispered

I smiled up at Alice who was frowning "What happened?" I asked "He is never going to let her go" she said an exasperated sigh leaving her lips as she eyed Jasmine

I opened my mouth and closed it again when I realized that I really have no comforting words to say because I think Alpha Xavier won't too

"Alice..." I called to her she averted her eyes from Jasmine to me "I need your help.." and then I told her she smiled at me "Okay" she said and I guess that one word is all that really matters

I quickly lowered my eyes when Alpha Xavier entered he class my heart slamming against my ribcage almost painfully I bit my lip nervously clasping the pencil tightly in my hands

During lunch I dragged Gabriel to the side to tell him that I needed his help "I'm not so sure Ash" he said shaking his head "Me neither" I said Gabriel squeezed my hand in his "But I'll help" he said and I gave him a grateful smile

Lunch was weird as... usual Rave glared at Alpha Xavier as he flirted with Jenna, Hail tried to get Gabe attention while Gabe tried to ignore her James Lint avoided Cameron and just focused his attention to Hail.

Alice tried to distract Beta Jordan by talking to him while Beta Jordan continued to stare at Jasmine and Dreydon, who seemed not to notice that Beta Jordan is looking at them and just continued to feed each other

After lunch I had study hall so I was about to go by my locker when I heard Cameron and James talking,

"Why is me not being gay is fucking hard to understand Cam?" James Lint asked his voice hard

"I just want to give it a try..I want to give us a try" Cameron said his voice breaking

"That's the fucking thing..there's no us" James Lint said before walking away his footsteps echoing

I turned to leave when Cameron said "It's okay...It's know you're there" he said and I took a deep breath before turning back and walking toward him

Cameron had his back against the lockers his green eyes was exactly like Jenna..eyes that I have come to hate but as they glisten with tears I felt my heart soften

"I'm so pathetic..." he said pointing at himself "But I can't stop" he said his voice soft

"I guess that's the thing..you can't just unlove someone just because that someone doesn't love you back" I said

He looked at me smilling slightly "Love is like energy it cannot be destroyed just transformed...to something deeper to something so painful..to something more than it should be"

I nodded my head and my eyes widened when he pulled me into a hug he chuckled against my ear "Don't worry I'm gay now which makes me safe" he whispered

I smiled and hugged him back he walked away after that and I went straight to my locker like nothing changed but something did...I have a new friend

After class I nervously waited by Alpha Xavier's car twisting my sweaty fingers infront of me curling my toes as nervousness continued to devour my heart

"What do you need?" Alpha Xavier asked in a bored tone I was so nervous that I didn't even notice that he was right in front of me

I bit my lip my knees weakening at the look of his eyes I closed my eyes before I stood on my toes and leaned into whisper in his ear

"Tomorrow night..at the beach by 7:00 I'll wait for you" having that said I quickly turned around and ran inside Rave's car too nervous to look at his reaction

Rave looked at me "How was it?" He asked and I took a deep breath "Nerve-racking" I answered

I was surprised when he called early but since I was too nervous to say anything I just put the call and speaker and drifted off to sleep wondering what tomorrow would bring