THE QUIET.

|fourteen

i feel so tired of everything.

i think my mother knew how i was feeling because she took me to a salon.

they died my hair back to black.

it was refreshing to get rid of that faded orange.

it made me want to change more about myself.

so,

i went shopping.

i bought a lot of things i wouldn't really have bought before.

i actually smiled when i looked in the mirror.

my dark circles were gone because of the sleeping pills,

my hair looked good,

and my outfit made me feel more confident.

even if it was all decorations on the outside,

it made me feel like a new person.

i knew i wasn't.

i knew the feeling wasn't going to last.

but nevertheless,

i appreciated feeling something other than sadness for once.