THE QUIET.

|eighteen

everything hurts.

everything's numb and painful at the same time.

i regret opening those messages.

i've been crying for hours.

they were smart for locking up my pills.

god,

if only i could get my fucking hands on them.

i told myself you were done affecting me.

i was wrong.

you never will be.

every time i think about you,

it will hurt.

that's why it's called "falling in love".

i understand that now.

it's because you fall for that person and everything they do.

you become connected and no matter how much that sucks,

you can't do anything about it.

my heart has fallen for you.

and now i am stuck in this dark hole called the world.

i wish i could have just died instead.