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jonas claven | the enemy about assholes | 13
whitman,
You've always been an asshole in my book. You did everything in your power to go against me, trying to take what I wanted or already had. Position as hockey captain? Slipped away from fingers. Girl I was interested in? Already fell in love with you, since being best friends just wasn't enough. Awards for classes? Gone in a blink of an eye. You were a fucking asshole, and I hated you for it every single day of my life.
But I never wanted you dead.
We were sworn enemies, and I wanted you to lose everything you ever took from me. But fuck, I didn't want you to lose your life. I'm not some sick monster.
And now that I think back on it, I realize how worthless it all seems. Our arguments seem pointless, our insults are now meaningless, our anger towards each other just no longer exists. And even though you got the good things in life, doesn't mean I didn't get anything at all. I found enjoyment in playing baseball, I now have a wonderful girlfriend, and my grades are high, earning me a scholarship.
I really thought you were an asshole, but you were honestly the reason why I'm at a better spot. And it just fucking sucks because we might have actually gotten along later down the line, but it will never happen now. Something left to think about, you know? We don't start missing things until it's gone, and I admit it, I miss you. That's... weird to write, but I guess it's true in all forms.
I'm really sorry this happened. I know it's not my fault, but I feel like it is. Maybe things would've changed, but again, we'll never find out.
I also hope you can forgive me.
frenemy(?), jonas
p.s. Reagan's doing really well now. You'd be really proud if you saw her.
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Huh. I really like this chapter. Sorry it took so long to update :( school sucks.
BUT I STILL HOPE YOU ENJOYED AND CRIED AND ALL THE SAME.
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH. THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT!
(I'M WRITING ANOTHER SHORT STORY, IF YOU'RE CURIOUS. NOT POSTED YET, BUT I'M EXCITED FOR IT.)
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