you tell me I'm fine but do u know how much I want to die
U spoiled him and forgot about me
Now he's gone and all you do is judge me
Sometimes I think u wish I had gone with him
I sold my soul to the devil now he claims me and produces my sadness
I cry but I hide it and you believe it
U act like everything is my fault
Like everything I do is wrong
I'm starting to believe that what I did I shouldn't have because it was wrong
U called me fat and then denied it u tell me to eat healthier but I cant
I cry a lot thinking everything I do is wrong
I only put my self down never pulling my self up
I stopped trying
Only crying keeps me alive
I draw on my arms to keep from cutting my already scared skin
And yet you told me to stop because you don't like it
Would you prefer I did it with a blade and let the blood pour out
I'm done with your stupid games
Sometimes I wish you would just love me for who I am and not try to change me
Cutting is what I do to feel alive
Yet you still judge
U believe the fake smiles
Fake laughs
And you ignore the real tears
I open my skin with the blade
Crying out
Asking if this is what you wanted
Blood pools around me
One drip
Two drip
Three drip four
Now the blood is rushing out
I'm relieved that it's finally over
Good bye
One drip
Two drip
Three drip four
I'm dead now and it's all your fault.
