Lately, I can't find much happiness in things. I'm slowly letting go. Can't you please hold on to me. Make me feel like I am no longer alone. Hold my hand, and never let go. I want to be with you for forever. Just by being I'm the room with you the pain goes away. You fight away the demons I could not even face. You do more for me than you will ever now. You keep me safe...I don't ever want you to let me go..
But I'm scared. I know I'm not worth your love. I know I am not lovely even though I long to be. I feel like a single thing I could do could make you instantly despise me. When we hit the little bumps in the road I expect you to turn us around and drive us straight into the fire. But surprisingly you start to drive faster keeping me away from the danger. I just want to know why. Why? Why do you even care? Why do you even bother? I know I am worthless and troublesome.
Do you think about me, darling? Because you're on my mind. I wish I wasn't so shy or maybe we could fly away and get to a place far away where we could finally find happiness. I want out. I want out of this tragedy I want to find an escape. If only you could play me and simple melody that made the pain melt away, forgetting all the reasons why I'm broken and being put back together again.
I just hope that you don't leave, because you really are my reason to live. And I can't make it without you. I know you are strong. Stronger than me. Strong enough to move mountains and make the world turn upside down. Have faith in yourself dear, because all my faith is in you.
