The Light in the Dark (completed)

Wait for you

3 years later.

I hopped down the steps and was greeted by an excited Ginny. Today was her first day of second grade,and I could still distinctly remember every other first day of school for her. She came to me when she had a problem, not any of her siblings or her father. She came over all the time too. I treated her like my own kid, we had things in common and I feel like I was good for her to have and she was good for me.
I rested Ginny on my hip even if she was a lot bigger but she was small for her age so I didn't really care. I was in eleventh grade already too. I greeted Zach with a smile and we took Ginny to the elementary school and dropped her off and I gave her the same pep talk every year.
Always be nice to your teachers. Don't let anyone bully you. And except the friends God gives you. Is what I'd say every year and I repeated it this year but I always finished with. But always have fun. She smiled and turned into her classroom to be greeted by one of her friends. Zach and I walked out together and walked toward the high school.
And if your wondering, we are still together. And I'm still on chemo. We walk into the school closely and I greet Meredith who can interpret most of my sign language. And I just read her lips.
Hey! I sign to her even though I saw her less than a week ago.
"Back in the underworld they call school," she says.
Yep. Enjoy our stay! I sign and walk to my locker after Andrew comes over and hugs her from behind. I pull out a binder and notebook and walk into class. I sat down by Meredith and pulled out my books.
    The school day went by with the beginning of the year speeches and all. Very boring.
    After school Zach and I picked up Ginny and then he dropped me off, while taking Ginny home. I sat in my bedroom alone. I stared at the ceiling for a while, just thinking. Just thinking about the world around me, and everybody in it. Sometimes do you ever wonder what goes on in other people's minds? What it feels like to go through what they went through? Well I do. I stand and leave for dinner, Mrs. Walls was cooking but nobody was there yet. She always let me eat early because she new I didn't like to eat with everyone. Mrs. Walls wore a smile today, something you never, let me emphasize that, never, see her do. I raised an eyebrow questionably. She slid a piece of paper across the table. A piece of paper I recognized like the back of my hand. My eyes widened in shock but my gasp was caught in my throat.
    I stood up abruptly and withdrew back into my room. I vomited in the bathroom and then sat down on the closed toilet seat. I felt sick, but not nauseous. Just sick, like a sick feeling in my gut that I just wanted to regurgitate.
    That was when my sobs started. First, in small shudders, then, in waves that could destroy a village. Just when my life took a turn for the better? It just wasn't enough torture. I ran out of the building with tears clogging my eyes and in some way, traveled to the garden. I opened the gate and closed it behind me, but when I turned around, my head bumped into something hard.
    I looked up and recognized Zach's piercing Amber eyes from anywhere. He reached a hand onto the small on my back and led me to the bench. I lay my head against his shoulder and tried to focus on my breathing while he held my hand comfortingly and stroked my wrist with his thumb. He had held onto me through thick and thin and I know he deserved better than what I could give him and I wanted to come clean.
I'm sorry. I started after pulling away from him. I know that you love me and you care but you deserve more than what I can give you. You deserve to know that there is a future and I can't give that to you. I know I promised I'd never leave but sometimes God means different for us and I just want you to know, I've loved you all along. I finally finish and to say that Zach looks very confused is an understatement.
What does this even mean Holly? Zach asked me still not completely understanding or even understanding at all.
People don't love this long Zach. That won't change for us. My feelings have never wavered for you but I think you'll move on. Just don't dwell on me to much. I sign trying to stall.
    Holly, you know I love you with my whole heart and would never leave you, you know that right? He signs.
Yeah and I love you too. I sign.
    Just tell me please. He begs.
I'm so so sorry! I cry and pull his arm to me and I could tell he was aggravated but he didn't show
Please just explain because your sitting me on the edge of a cliff here Holly! Zach's signs.
I'm- I'm getting adopted Zach. I sign unsurely.
He just stares at me for a moment. How is this bad? He asks slowly.
Don't play dumb Zach. I don't even want to get adopted. I'm happy now. Without a family, with you. And with Ginny. I sign.
    But you will get your ear surgery. He signs and I toss the thought around in my head.
    And I'll be able to talk. If their rich too. I sign and Zach just nods. But I might never see you again.
    I know, but it's worth it. He replies. But I wasn't so sure.
    I'm going to miss you. I sign.
   I'll miss you too. And I'll wait for you. Forever. Zach signed.

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Authors note!

So I just realized I made Zach's sister or brothers girlfriend, I can't remember, named Meredith along with her friend so I changed Zach's sister or boyfriends girlfriend Christina instead of Meredith😊 thank you guys for sticking through this with me! I'm sorry I took a while I update, it's been busy and I'm pretty sick right now but I might be able to write some more. And how'd y'all like the time lapse? Comment your important opinions!⬇️