Room 234's VIRGIN

78. Confessions

July 30th 8 million reads!!!!!!!!!

Not sure if I told you this in the previous update but the stolen book has been taken down. :-) Thank you so much for the support and concerns, let's put it behind us and move on now! 😊

Brooke: "I'm not the most eloquent speaker, so I thought I would borrow a few words from Shakespeare. 'Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds.' When life gets hard, when things change, true love remains the same. I look at Nathan and Haley and some how I feel safer. I don't know if I can explain that, but they give me hope. And, I'm afraid say it out loud because maybe if life finds out it'll try to beat it out of them and that will be a shame. Because, we all can use a little hope sometimes, you know. That feeling that everything's going to be okay and that there's going to be someone there to help make sure of that. So, here's to Nathan and Haley, and here's to hope, and here's to a love that will not alter." - ONE TREE HILL

Lol this song is befitting for the chapters end.

Song: Bigbang: Bang Bang Bang

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     I feel something wet fall against my lips. My tongue glides over my lip touching the wet liquid that has a salty taste. My eyelids shut in slumber slowly flicker open. I take in the face over mine, eyes shut with tears pouring down, no sound coming from the body. My eyes flow down to the hands balled into a fist on the bed. As the body stands bent over me. No words are said yet I understand what is going through his mind. I almost lost her, she's hurt because of me, if only I was there a little earlier, I promised to protect her yet here she is in a hospital bed. He saw his mother commit suicide in front of him, something he blamed himself for and now his plans to save me almost ended up ruining me and though it saved me, I still ended up in a hospital bed. The guilt and self blame must be slowly eating him up from the inside killing him.

    Suddenly my previous anger at my ignorance on the plan no longer seems important. As my heart reaches out to him. Wanting to take away the guilt and pain. I raise my hands placing it against his cheek. His eyes flicker open as more drops of tears being held back by his shut eye lids, finding their freedom fall down against my face. I raise my hands and wipe the tears on my lips as my eyelids close and open up.

"It's salty" I say raising my hand to his face using my thumb to wipe his tears.

He stays silent.

"Forgive me," He says as the tears keep pouring. His words and voice holding and expressing his burden and emotions.

    I smile shutting my eyes and opening it. My finger run down his cheek as I shake my head slowly enduring the pain. Not wanting to show it and make him more worried.

"Keep me in the dark again Alexander Black and I won't forgive you," I say fighting the drowsy feeling from the drugs.

He twitches his lips.

"Never...I promise," He says as tears fall against my lips. Letting down my tired hand I slowly tap the spot next to me on the bed shutting my eyes too tired to fight the sleeping effect of the drugs.

       I open my eyes again after sleeping and notice it's bright, signifying a new day. I feel arms around my waist and a body against mine. I look down at the hands and smile placing mine over it. Contented and comforted by the body next to mine. I feel a kiss against my back through the hospital gown.

"Morning," I say.

He moves to get up from the tiny bed holding us two but I hold tightly onto his hands stopping him.

"Stay," I say.

       I feel his body shift trying to make room on the cramped up bed and reposition his body to align perfectly with mine. His head lays against my neck. We both stay silent. Feeling each other's body rise and fall to our heartbeats and breaths. I shut my eyes sliding my thumbs up and down his hands.