Is this love? (Vampire Knight x Reader)

Promises, promises

When we returned to the Moon Dorm, we immediately made our way to our respective rooms, not wanting to be caught by the other vampires who resided there. Once I entered my room, I took a precaution and locked my door, 

"I don't really want to risk anything. They probably wouldn't try anything but right now...they're not who they are. I don't want to take any chances." 

I mumbled to myself before getting changed and making my way to my bed. Before I made it however, I felt a pair of strong arms pull me into a toned chest. I gasped slightly in surprise and turned around quickly, relaxing at the sight of the familiar maroon haired vampire,  

"Rido? What are you doing here?" 

I asked, worried the others would find him and kill him. He looked in my eyes and wore a serious expression as he spoke,  

"Y/N, I heard your conversation with Cross....are you sure that this is a wise choice? I don't want you risking your life like this. It's reckless and dangerous." 

His tone was stern as his gaze burned a hole in me. He gently moved a strand of hair from my face and I sighed, 

"I know it's dangerous, but what choice do I have? He has to be stopped and our options are limited. If this is our only chance....then I think I should take it. I know it's dangerous-" 

he cut me off, anger and frustration in his tone as he spoke,  

"Dangerous and reckless! Y/N I don't want you doing this. Please I beg you don't! What happens if you die? Then what? Y/N, if I lose you..." 

He trailed off, anguish filled his gaze when he looked at me and my  heart began to ache at seeing him like this. I slowly took his hands in my own and squeezed them 

"Rido listen to me. I am not going to die. I swear to you I will not die. I will not leave you or anyone here alone. I promise you. I know the others are under Alek's influence, but I will stop him. I have to. I just hope I won't have to kill my friends in the process."  

I said as the image from my dream flashed in my mind. Rido regarded me seriously as he responded,

"What if you don't have a choice? You may want to show them mercy, but believe me when I say that they will not show you any. Not if Alek is controlling them. Once they've killed everyone, he'll have them kill each other. It'll be a slaughter and a bloodbath. He'll make you watch them kill each other just to torment you, and that's assuming he doesn't kill you in the end. Please tell me that when it comes down to it, if it's between you and them you'll ill them? Or at the very least incapacitate them? Because if you don't, I will."

I hesitated for a moment, but eventually nodded in affirmation. I knew he was right and that in the end, I'd have to hurt them regardless of how I feel. I just hope I'll be able to incapacitate them. Rido's serious expression softened as I nodded and he spoke,  

"Alright. But I want to do one thing first. In the event things don't work out they way we had hoped...I don't want to die without knowing what it's like." 

He said as he placed his hands on my waist, pulling me closer to him, making me trip slightly. I placed my hands on his chest to brace myself, feeling him warmth radiate from under my fingertips. I looked up at him to find he was already gazing down at me,  

"What what's like?"
I asked breathlessly, knowing where this was going as he brought his lips closer to mine. He hesitated for a moment to see if I would stop him. When I didn't, a smirk ghosted across his lips and I saw relief flicker in his eyes as he spoke to me in a hushed tone, 

"To kiss you." 

He whispered as he quickly closed what little space was left between us, bringing his lips to mine.