Unorthodox (Joey Bada$$)

37• I'm Destroying What I Love

A/n: Shout out to BlackCeramicDoll , thanks for finding "Neveah's" IG 💜☺️😊 ^^ Veah up dere

I left the party because it wasn't that fun and people we're doing lame shit like playing connect four in a closet. Kwon got so excited when Kirk challenged him in the game and I had to bounce. Akeem sent me a video from Complex.

What's up, it's Jinx from complex news and we want to know who Joey Badass' new Bae is. Last night, the Pro Era rapper joined an unnamed woman on stage after she sang "Thinkin' 'bout you" by Frank Ocean and kissed her. Fans want to know who she is and so do a couple of labels. Jinx out.

   I smiled and put my phone on the kitchen counter. I'm hungry. They only have trash in the fridge. Salad, white rice wit nothing to put on it, tofu and other bs.
   Instead of going out to buy some food, I warmed up the white rice and started smashing. I started thinking about what Jenna said about Akeem and it's really starting to bug me. I don't know who or what I want. I'm horrible at making decisions.

Speaking of the devil, Jenna busted through the front door with her loud ass. "I WAS WORRIED ABOUT YOU!"

"Why?" I asked calmly.

She grabbed my face and shook me after every word. "WHY! DIDNT! YOU! TELL! ANYONE?!"

"Cuz." I pushed her off of me.

She gave me a look. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing. Im just tired."

"Veah, I know the difference between tired and being sad. You're more sad than tired. What's wrong?"

"I'm destroying what I love Jenna. That's the best way I can explain it!" I croaked.

"Huh? Is this a family thing or something?"

"No Jenna! It's Joey and Akeem!"

"Ooo you found who-"

"I'm so stupid."

Her smiled faded away. "Did they do something to you?!"

"No, I did something to both of them. I kissed Akeem and I regret it but I don't at the same time. It felt so good!"

Her eyes widened.

"He gave me this bracelet." I held my wrist up and a tear rolled down my cheek. I fucked up and I don't know what to do."

Jenna covered her mouth. "T-that's why Joey got serious out of no where at the party."

"What do you mean?" My heart started hurting and my stomach got queazy.

"He was all over the place and before I left like ten minutes before I did he got quiet and had this face like someone said something to him."

"Where is he now?" I asked.

"He should be here in fifteen." She looked at the time on her phone.

I held my head and sat on the couch. "I'm fucking up!"

Jenna sat next to me and held me. "Joey was talking to Indigo so he can't really get mad at you."

"Did he kiss her?"

"Mmm mm."

"He can get mad at me! Jenna oh my god!!"

"Neveah it is what it is." She rolled her eyes. "Face it. You made a mistake and now you've got to come face to face with the consequences. No one put a gun to your head and told you to kiss AK. That was all you!"

Way to make me feel better -.-

I gulped. "Fuck it. Let's see how this goes."

The front door opened and we snapped our necks to see who it is.