To anyone that wonders if I'm writing about them: I am

14.

Personally I don't understand why people always feel the need to voice their own opinions and then not treat others opinions as respectful as theirs were treated.
Bitch if I respect what you are saying to me, but I disagree with it
THAT'S MY RIGHT
IM ENTITLED TO MY OWN OPINION
if you want me
As your friend
To personally give you my honest opinion on something, I will.
Why?
BECAUSE YOU ASKED
I am that person unfortunately.
Some people don't always want the truth, hell I don't always want the truth but I suck that shit up because at least I know someone has the decency to make sure I'm not looking stupid.
Other people however want fluff. They want to hear what sounds nice.
I'm not gonna fluff you up if I care about you.
My biggest absolute pet peeve is being disrespected or treated in a mannerism I don't think I necessarily deserve.
I always.... ALWAYS make it my priority to be a fucking nice ass person
I like to be treated in a nice ass way.
I treat people how I want to be treated, same goes for if someone treats me a certain way I WILL WITHOUT HESITATION TREAT YOU THE EXACT SAME WAY.
People need to learn in my personal opinion which is basically this book, that I am personally guaranteed in my FIRST AMENDMENT RIGHTS that you can not treat someone some way and expect them to just brush it off.
Bitch
Who's the robot? Who is the robot that you're communicating with, who?
It's not me.
I get very defensive , when I feel as if someone is attacking me defense mode switches on and my filter switches off.
If you've read previous chapters you'd realize the type of person I am now.
I warned people, I'm past that.
I've taken deep breaths, I'm past that.
I'm at the point literally where I don't care, I'm back to this.
I don't care.
I'm not sorry that I don't care.
I've given chances, people take them for granted so guess what bitches it's too late.
Now all of a sudden, I'm "rude" or I'm being "over dramatic" or "extra".
The story is short
A friend and I got in a big unnecessary argument over miscommunication and her taking my jokingly written words out of context.
I didn't read what I wrote wrong but we are still both wrong in the situation.
It went left when she tried to tell me what I could and could not relate to.
If you've read along before you should know this is my second largest pet peeve, people trying to categorize me as something I can and cannot do.
"You can't relate because you've never" LMAOOO
Not to sound rude but, bitch did I ask?
You see I could've said that but I didn't.
Who wouldn't be pissed if someone threw shade at them knowingly and then called them all these childish ass names when they decided to respond with their opinion as the other person just did.
I listened, why can't you?
Is there suddenly an issue, can you suddenly not read?
But because you were mad I was supposed to listen and be caring and understanding.
Now that I'm mad I'm "rude" or "disrespectful" lol, "okay"
I say all of this to finally say, I may have lost a friend tonight and that sucks because I appreciated our friendship but it's okay because I defended myself and who I was; I'll get over it.
Never, EVER SIS
Never let someone take everything from you.
I was so mad I was crying, literal ass tears I'm so overwhelmed with everything going on in my life, why wouldn't I ?
I needed to cry, but it was angry tears not relieving ones.
She got a reaction from me, but she didn't take my pride.
so sis, no matter how fucking much miscommunication is in a situation ALWAYS DEFEND YOURSELF AND YOUR BELIEFS.
Other than that people will literally run all over you. If you're your own cheerleader you're your own support.
Next, if someone is wrong don't argue with them.
Say what you have to say and leave.
I said "have a nice life :)" and apparently she took offense .
I can't want you to live nicely tf?
Hit them with the Goodnight and that champ ass smiley face ":)" and keep it pushing.
I have dreams babygirl
School work
Grades
Family life
Home
All of those things currently occupying all my emotions, just because I'm different than you in the sense I don't have a boyfriend, I don't need one and I'm obviously fine without one.
Finally the most important lesson, try your best to not act out of anger because you will regret it.
I may not curse you out directly to you, but you will be getting cursed out.
Somehow I will find a way to relieve my anger, but never take it out on that person.
I wanted to block her number and tell her off and all of that but I didn't, why not?
I'm better than that.
She would've had complete power over me if I would've given her the advantage of bringing me out of my character .
So sis, when you get in an argument with a friend, a new enemy, or someone comes at you disrespectful respond with this ":)" and take every adjective they throw at you with grace.
Because in the end I might be in her words " rude", "disrespectful", and "over dramatic" but at least I know I'm a rude, disrespectful, over dramatic ass bitch that commands respect.
Never let your crown fall, when it gets pushed to the side in moments like these tilt that shit to the side and spit a few barz.
Because princesses too, can be bad ass rapper bitches.
Have a great day,
- Llogan 💋