Secrets

Confronting the Packs

Chapter 34

                I woke up and I felt like I was in heaven. I was lying in the arms of my beautiful mate. Our legs were wrapped around one another and my head was resting against his bare chest. I laid there not moving. I was enjoying this feeling because it could be taken away in an instant. I knew that more than anyone.

                I looked at Oliver. He was already looking better. The bags beneath his eyes were begin to fade. The sight of him yesterday nearly broke me. He now looked at ease as he lay asleep. His hair was messy, it was totally a bed head style. I traced my fingers up and down his chest and the royal mark on his upper arm. He was perfect. Everything about him was perfect.

                All I wanted right now was to live with him forever in eternity. Ollie, my baby boy and I and maybe a few more kids along the way. I could never live without Ollie. I needed him so much. I would never deliberately leave his side again. I could never do that to myself or to him.

                I sighed slightly still tracing my fingers across his chest. I thought about today. The rest of the packs don’t know yet. They are still annoyed and are seeking blood from my betrayal. Today, Oliver and I would explain everything. I was relying on them understanding so that there would be no problems. I needed everyone to understand what I was going through.

                I felt Oliver shiver beside me and his eyes fluttered open. His beautiful intriguing eyes looked into mine. They were full of such emotion. I was so glad that he forgave me. I knew I had hurt him to such a bad point and I was glad he was willing to take me back. I was glad he understood.

                “Hey,” He spoke roughly as he woke from his sleep.

                “Hey,” I replied softly.

                He leant forward kissing me softly and delicately. It was so loving and caring. It was brilliant. It was heart stopping. He pulled away resting his forehead against mine.

                “I can’t believe you went through all of that on your own. I dread to think what your emotions were like,” Oliver sighed.

                “I was a mess to be honest. I think I fell into depression for a good month before Ali finally pulled me out of it. It was so hard. I felt like such a bad person,” I sighed back.

                “You are far from a bad person. You saved our child and only followed the orders of the Moon Goddess. No one can argue that. You saved our beautiful baby boy. I can’t love you anymore than I do right now,” Oliver replied.

                A smiled tugged lightly at my lips. I placed my head onto his chest and his arms wrapped around me securely. We laid there in silence just loving the feeling of us this close. The feeling of each other wrapped in each other’s arms. The tingles were constant in my body and I loved it. I was never going to forget this feeling.

                You never truly appreciate what you have until it is all take away from you. You never really think about the things you have until it is gone. Not having my family and my mate. If anything it strengths the love you have for them. It certainly did with me.

                “When are Jackson and Tommy’s funerals?” I asked, hesitantly.               

                “You know?” Oliver questioned.

                “We had Joe stationed just outside the territory. He was acting as a spy by relaying information to us,” I spoke.