KABANATA 7

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"Apologize to him."

I looked at the ceiling, remembering what Karlos said. Apologize to Antonio? I know, I feel bad about my action towards him a while ago, but I'm not the type of person who says, "Sorry". I'm always right. I'm never wrong. That's why, I don't apologize.

I sighed. And this makes me feel uneasy. I've never been like this before. So, why? Why am I feeling this now? Ba't parang nakokonsensya ako?

Is it because he was nice to me the whole day I was with him? Is it because he saved me? Or is it becaese I am greatful-

Goodness.

I... I haven't thank him either. I hurt his feelings. And now, I'm being bothered by my conscience. Two words are bothering me. "Thanks" and "Sorry". Two words that I don't know how to say. These words, they'll get rid of the guilt I'm feeling.

"Aish!" padabog akong bumangon mula sa pagkakahiga. "Magso-sorry lang naman ako eh. Madali lang naman sabihin. Sorry, Antonio. Tapos! 'Yun! 'Di naman sinabi ni Karlos na kailangang sincere." napasabunot ako.

I can't do it. I want to do it, but I can't. I feel like, it won't be enough. Plain sorry isn't enough. I stood up. I should, cool my mind for me to think properly. This whole thing is driving me nuts.

I went out of the room. Napansin kong tahimik na ang buong bahay. Tulog na siguro sila Aling Isay. Baka tulog na din si Antonio.

Lumabas na ako ng bahay at dumiretso sa may pino ng mangga. Buti nalang at kahit papano ay maliwanag ang paligid dahil na rin sa bilog na buwan. Nang makarating sa may puno, naupo ako sa damuhan.

I closed my eyes. The cold breeze was touching my skin. It was cold but it felt amazing. Calm. The environment in the past is much better than my timeline. Dito, walang air pollution. Tahimik ang gabi. And what made it better? I looked up. The stars, the starry sky. I could see the milky way with my own naked eyes. 'Di na kailangan ng telescope or dslr camera para makita mo'to.

And another thing that made the night beautiful was the fireflies. 'Di mo man abot ang mga bituin sa langit, parang naabot mo naman ito dito sa lupa dahil sa mga alitaptap.

I inhaled, It's been a long time since I felt something this peaceful. Last time I felt this was with my brother.

I miss my family.

I wanna go back already.

"Bakit narito ka pa sa labas? Malalim na ang gabi." napalingon ako sa nagsalita. Ngunit agad ko ring iniwas nang malaman kung sino ito.

"A-ah, nagpahangin lang." nauutal kong sagot. Damn.

"Pumasok ka na. Maya-maya'y maglilibot na ang mga sundalong kastila, kapag nakita ka nila rito ay maaari ka nilang dakpin." matapos niyang sabihin 'yun ay naramdaman kong naglakad na siya palayo.

So, he's giving me a cold treatment?

I stood up at hinarap siya, "A-antonio!" napahinto naman siya ngunit hindi niya ako nilingon.

I swallowed my saliva as I tighten my grip. It's now or never. I don't want my existence erased and I don't want to be bothered by the guilt I am feeling.

"T-tungkol sa s-sinabi ko kanina, ano..." I looked down. I can't look at him when I say these words. "A-ano... P-p-pasensya na. 'Di ko sinasadya. I-I didn't mean it. I-it's just that, a-akala ko nagiging pabigat na ako sa inyo. And it made me feel like.. like I'm weak. And I don't wanna be weak. Pasensya na sa inasal ko kanina-"

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