Again

22.

Fuck it I can't sleep so I might as well put my thoughts into words now those of u that need to go to sleep hurry and read this and go to sleep! God I hate school. Not that I don't like learning it's all the idiots I encounter. The slow walkers those that scream in the hall because of their bff even tho they saw them yesterday and those like me who push people into walls because apparently their god given legs don't work. I almost broke my hand on a kids shoulder when I pushed him into the locker because he was purposely walking slow! Men! And to top it all off I suck at math! Oh fucking well!

I pulled up to the house in Brooklyn and stepped out. I went to the trunk and grabbed my bags and waited for Fred before going to the door. The busy city noise welcoming be back to my home.
I opened the door and was greeted by my mother.
"Mija!" She kissed my cheek and took the bag out of my right hand.
"Mamá! Dónde está mi mija?" Her face dropped. "Mamá?" Her eyes went down and she moved to the side allowing me to pass. I dropped my things and walked up the stairs and down the hall to my room.
Daughter;momma,where is my daughter;momma.
I knocked but got no answer. I tried the knob finding it unlocked.
I moved the door and saw that my bed was made but all four of my high school year books were on the bed. They were all opened to the pages of best couple.
I sighed and closed my eyes. She wasn't in the room but the window to the ledge was open.
I moved the curtain to see her sitting on a pool chair reading with her ear buds in.
"Hey." She jumped but when she saw that it was me she half rolled her eyes and went back to reading.
"Hi. Two hours early. Took the early flight?" She placed her book mark in her book and paused her music.
"Ya I wanted to see you. How are your bones?" I asked squatting down and placing a gentle hand on her ribs. She has a new wrap on.
"Ya I feel better I just want to go to a gym or on a run. Being pent up is killing me." I smiled slightly. "I found your year books."
"Ya I saw that you did." I got up and grabbed the folding chair from by the window before setting it next to my daughter.
"Four years." I took her hand and rubbed it between both of mine.
"Ya." I looked at all the buildings around, remembering all the times I would come out here and just watch the city. It was sometimes hard to see the stars because of the lights.
"What was he like?" She asked softly. I looked at the beautiful young woman that I still could not believe that I created.
"He was nice. Our Senior year I was getting ready to go to college. As was he. We both graduated. I went to a different place than he did for college. But when I was twenty one I came back to the city for spring break. I ended up spending multiple nights with him. But a couple days before I left he was abusive. I got a black eye." I watched her face as the tale unfurled. "I broke his arm when he tried to smack me. But we never spoke again." I had small tears running down my face. She lifted her left hand and swiped her thumb over my cheeks collecting them.
"A queen is always pretty but it's heart breaking to see her crying over someone that doesn't deserve her tears." I smiled and pressed my forehead to her.
"And guess what happened a month later? I missed my period and found out that I was carrying a little tiny being in side me." We both giggled. "I love you Emilee." I kissed her nose.
"I love you too."

I woke up the next mourning in the spare bedroom laying next to Fred who was snoring loudly.
I yawned before getting out of the bed running a hand through my hair.
The smell of coffee brought me to the kitchen.
My mom was reading the paper while drinking coffee and eating a bagel.
"Mourning." I went to the pantry and pulled out Frosted Flakes.
"Emilee left for her walk." She said not even glance at me.
"You let her leave by herself?" I asked, my protective side coming out.
"Yes don't worry the girl next door is with her." I put the flakes back and went back to the room. I shut the door  frantically pulling my clothes off and grabbing new ones.
"Where are you going?" I glanced up to see my fiancé propped up on his elbows.
"I'm going for a walk." I pulled on leggings.
"Yep. Let me guess she left?" He laid back down.
"Yes she's with a friend." I pulled a tank on grabbing a jacket and my tennis shoes.
I left the house and walked in the direction that my Mamá said she went. I noticed her in a coffee shop with a girl about her age.
But I pretended I didn't know she was in there.
"How may I help you?" The barista asked with a smile.
"I would like a tall coffee three shots vanilla." I said pulling out a five dollar bill.
"Name?" She asked getting a cup ready.
"Lana."
"Lana Parrilla? No way that can't be her." I didn't turn around I just moved to the side and waited.
"That is her lets go say hi!" A tap on my shoulder made a smile go to my face as I saw two younger girls smiling widely.
"Hi!" They both squealed.
"Hi can we get a selfie?" The taller one held up her phone. I nodded and got behind them. They snapped a few.
"How are you two?" I asked taking my coffee from the barista.
"Oh we are doing just fine. My name is Alex and this is my girlfriend Lauren." I smiled at them.
"SwanQueen?" They both nodded fast.
"Yes you should get a selfie Jen!" I smirked.
"If I can catch her next time I see her. Are you going to watch the Live With Kelly show tomorrow night?" I took a sip of the drink in my hand.
"Of course!" After a small chat about different coffee flavors I prefer I went to walk out the door when I noticed Emilee starring at me. I turned my head and looked at her.
I raised a brow and smiled slightly. I winked getting a small smile from her before I walked out the door.
I was walking back toward the house when I heard her call my name.
"Lana! Mom!" I stopped walking and let her fast walk to catch up to me.
"Hello dear." I noticed that her friend was with her.
"Mom this is Kylee." She gestured to her.
"Oh? Hi I'm Lana." I shook her hand. But I saw the way Tally was looking at her.
"Hi it's an honor to meet you." I smiled before placing a dot of whipped cream on my daughters nose.
"Honors all mine." I giggled as Emilee glared at me. "Have you talked to Audrey? She told me to tell you to call her this mourning." I informed. Emilee nodded.
"Who's Audrey?" Kylee asked with a small jealous smile.
"My girlfriend. The one I told you about." Emilee tried to get the cream off her nose with her tongue.
"Isn't she in Canada?" Emilee nodded before giving up and just whipping it off and licking it off her finger.
"Em I'm going to lunch with some old friends do you want to join?" I asked as we stopped at the stairs to the house.
"Ya by Kylee."
I shut the door and took my shoes off.
"Kylee is very into you." I teased.
"Ya and I'm very into Audrey." She raised a brow making us both laugh but she had to stop because of her still recent injury.