3 days have passed since i decided to go to high school, but i'm not sure yet. Ace has been ignoring me since, i feel like all of his feelings have just vanished in the air. I know i was not fair with him, i tried pushing him away for his own good to save him, but he does not know it.
He think's that i juts never wanted him, but he is wrong! i have feelings toward's him, i can't say i love him, love is very strong word, but care for him with all my heart which i don't even have.
I'm mad at him for not understanding my action's, but on the other hand i understand him, if i imagine myself instead of him, i would loose my hope to.
But what to do? how to be if i can't even talk to him! I wan't to tell him everything, but he does not even look at me now. It hurt's me, it hurt's me so bad knowing that he is pushing me away, that he shut me out. But the most painful part is that he does not believe me, he does not trust me, but well i didn't give him reasons to trust me.
It's taking me to hell and back knowing perfectly what is he doing, he end's up bringing slut's here, and i just wan't to rip their head's of, but i restrain myself, by taking a run, or realising my anger on the punching bag, which i haven't used for a while now.
If he continues bringing this bimbos here then i'm gonna go back to my old ways. I tried to forget but he is bringing my dark side out, which i never wan't to see again. I don't want to see the side of me in which i hurt my pack members, in which i murdered my pack. That side of is what people call The cursed Alpha!
After murdering my pack, and activating the curse, i started to do things i'm not proud of, but Sasha and Charlie saved me, but now Ace is bringing my dark side out again.
My dark side is still me, but when i'm angry, and it's not something you wan't to see. I did horrible stuff when i activated the curse, i ended up killing people with no mercy, ended up doing underground fighting, ended up using stuff i'm not proud of.
But why i deserve this, i deserve it all! How can i live when the only person who is born to save me is against me, who hates me. What is the point of living?
No i should not think like this, i have My family, Sasha, Charlie, i have Ace. If not for myself then i have to live for them!
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Hey guys i know it's short but i just wanted to show you guys her feelings!
Also what do you guys think about her dark side? what is it?
Or her thoughts about not wanting to live anymore?
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