I don't know what's happening. Her hands are moving in ways I've never seen before, they were stumbling on my skin and the nervous smile on her face never seemed to go away entirely.
Her left hand had a tight grip behind my head, pulling me closer to her. Her leg was draped over my waist and any time she stopped kissing me it was only to help me remove another item of clothing, or to remove one of her own.
Her face showed concern, and I could almost feel the butterflies through her stomach as it pressed against mine. I reached to my right and grabbed the blanket, reaching over her back to cover us both.
She hovered her face over my own, since she took control
very
early on and was on top. Her forehead touched mine and she spoke for the first time in what felt like forever.
"You...you don't want to see me...?" she half-asked.
I put a hand on her jaw and pulled her in, kissing her forehead. "I don't want you to feel too exposed...h-honest. I just want this to-to be perfect." I tried keeping a confident look in my eyes but I knew I was failing with all the stuttering.
"Are..." Krystal cleared her throat and I waited patiently. "Are you sure about this, Amber?" she asked in a low voice.
I didn't reply. I kept looking at her and without breaking my silence, I reached back and pulled my shirt off before putting both hands behind her neck and pulling her back to me.
Her smooth legs were moving on mine, her free hand shakily tracing lines up down and over my stomach.
Every touch was put into my memory; every movement she made was recorded in my brain. I needed to soak all of this up, to remember the details so I'd know it was real. What I was feeling was secondary because nothing was more important than remembering her at this time, in MY arms.
I was trying to keep up with her busy legs but ended up raising my knee into either the best...or worst part it could possibly go.
She let out a sound I hadn't ever heard her make before. It was absolutely a drug and I was hooked on the first hit. But even if it drove me insane...I had no idea if it was okay.
"I'm—I'm sorry, I'll be careful..." I muttered in a low tone.
I remained still and she slowly brought herself back down to me and kissed my neck once. She then kissed my jaw. Then the corner of my lips. Then she moved to my ear and said the three words that I swear to god made the hair on the back of my neck stand.
"Do it again." she said in a gentle whisper, kissing the skin between my neck and jaw.
I stared at her with wide eyes, not sure how to react. This is the first time I've ever...I've never had somebody make me feel this way. Maybe it was the rushing hormones, maybe it was her beautiful skin and the way it was glowing, or maybe it was the fact that it was
she was talking to.
I put my entire arm behind her and made sure her chest was as close to mine as it could be without making the kiss uncomfortable. I glanced for a second at the blanket to see it was off her shoulder and even lower than that.
I sighed a shaky sigh and my knee raised of it's own accord and pressed itself to the same spot between her thighs once again. She looked at me through foggy eyes, looking down at our bodies from her position and breathing out.
"Please..." she said in a small voice, "if you're going do do that...please do it..."
I swallowed and sighed, nodding and pretending her telling me what to do wasn't for some reason driving me up the wall with desire.
