Shatter ✔ #TheWattys2017

84. Death

OMG I HATE THIS APP!!!

I HAD 12,000 WORDS WRITTEN AND THE ENTIRE THING FROZE ANS DIDN'T SAVE BUT 8,000!!!! IM SO FREAKING MAAAAD!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVE TO WRITE THAT ENTIRE CRAP ALL OVER AGAIN!!!!!

so we are having an extra chapter added to the end. Laugh! I know you want to! Ole chapter adding Chilee...

Here ya go.

Even though the past 2 hours of work was for NOTHING!!!

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Nova

Waking up to a warm body against my side, an arm carelessy thrown over my stomach, I felt light and happy. The tingles from Zaryn's skin on my skin were pleasing and I could see myself waking up like this every morning. His touch made the pain much bearable and I had been in a lot of pain lately.

Of course i would be in pain. Getting speared through the chest isnt exactly painless.. but i did find myself lying to Zaryn about exactly how much I had been hurting. But i forgot.. he can sense when I'm in pain. Thankfully this morning, the pain wasn't as bad as it had been yesterday.  Tomorrow i should be healed with just the remaining sensitive scar tissue but I was thankful to have my mate in times like these. It made healing go so much quicker when they were skin to skin with you.

Rubbing my eyes, i tried my best to stay still so i wouldn't jostle him. His sleeping form next to me, so content. He looked so young and peaceful like this.. his long lashes cast shadows under his eyes.. no frown lines could be seen. His full lips were parted and so pink i just wanted to lean over and kiss them but he would surely wake up to that.

Sighing, i just stared while my wolf pushed me to kiss him awake. She wanted some attention.

My wolf had finally woken and perked back up with the lessening of the pain medication I was under and I could feel her more. The changes in her.. they were forming. My conversation with the Moon, or rather Deacon, had also affected the wolf. She felt a sole responsibility and dedication now.. she felt like a mother to all wolves and now she was going to be a mother to her own pup eventually. Her maturity was progressing, as is mine. Everyday i sense new feelings from her thay differ from before but one thing that is always consisten is her need to be with our mate. He was her rock. As he is mine.

Zaryn.. i felt so bad for him.. but he got the closure he needed yesterday in that letter. We havent talked about it yet and i had no idea what it would say but he let me read it. Only he didnt want to discuss it.. he just wanted to forget about everything for a while and just be with me. Besides, with all the visitors we had yesterday, we hardly got a chance.

I read the letter.. its contents still playing on my mind..

It had read:

Zaryn,

Its me. Deacon. I know you have heard a lot through Nova and i wish there was some way i could make things right between us.. some way i could see you.. talk to you.. explain things. Because hearing them from Nova isnt the same as hearing them from me.

Thankfully, the Moon is so good, she allowed me this last right. To send my words to you on paper.. the Moon is almighty afterall and yes.. shes a vengeful moon but shes also a forgiving one.

Death for me.. It wasnt like death for all other wolves because of my illness.

And i want you to know i dont blame you for what you did. I want you to know that im sorry.. for everything that i did. I wasn't in my rigjt mind and well, now i am. Now the sickness is no longer with me as it was apart of my body and not my soul.