it's Within Me

chapter two ~meet me~

The speakers where loud and clear everybody had to go to their dorms but I didn't. And why? Because I was busy? Because I didn't hear anything with my earplugs in? Or did I know? All I know is that when the lightning struck the table after it went trough the roof, the only thing I felt was electricity mixed with everything that I had stacked out on the table. I felt it not only on my body I felt it inside, like it was a part of me, like a part of me chanced.

You know that kind of feeling where something is itching you from the inside and you can't seem to shake that feeling away? Well I felt that, but mixed with suffer, anger, pain and frustration all at the same time.

It was like I was going to die but something kept pulling me out. It was horrible. And at this moment I wished I just died, because even though this hurts what is to come is far worse.

What for me felt like days of pain actually was 10 minutes. Because that when they found me underneath a chemical cupboard with my head against the table I was working at.

Afterward Lexi told me she was the one who found me and that I looked like a bloody mess. Which was actually true because I was covered in my own blood. After I cleaned myself up I went to bed because I had a major headache, probably from bumping my head twice.

Someone knocked on the door I went to open it but there was no one there, so I closed the door. And there was it again that knocking noise.

So I opened the door again and there was standing a girl..

Not just a girl but a exact replica of...

Me...

I stood there just looking at myself, but something wasn't right.

When I looked at her she smiled evilly and just stood there like it was normal, like she did this every day.

I tried to say something but all that came out was "wow...". I was paralyzed and just stood there looking at.. Me...

Time past before I was able to say something and even then all I said was, " h-how is this p-possible?" My voice was soft and cracking, but nonetheless she.. I mean me.. Heard it and said dry, "because you made me darling".

When I got my voice back I asked "why?" And again she answered like everything was normal "because you needed me to be here"

Slowly regaining my sense I started to blink her away, thinking this was just a bad dream. But every time I opened my eyes she was still there.

After trying a few times she said "oh honey you can't get rid of me don't you get that. You are stuck withe until you let out all that anger you created."

This started to become weirder and weirder so I just closed the door and thought this just couldn't be true. I always found all my answers with science, but even science couldn't help me understand what was happening right now.

I decided to just get some sleep and ignore everything around me. It sounded so easy... Just forget everything, everything you've ever done everything you've ever thought of.. If you could just forget everything sometimes and just sleep and even in you're dreams you don't worry about a thing.

But that's humanly impossible you're mind will never stop and sometimes it can be a real struggle... In my case I wish that sometimes after this day I could remember what happened...

~ the next day~

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Clouds turning black,
No memory of yesterday.
Is it just in my head or
Is this life really a wreak.

Sadness comes to light.
No life no spirit no soul,
No turning it off or on
Just sadness no clear sight.

a feeling of being completely
Alone.
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It's a poem I thought of in my dream I don't know why but I had the urge to write it down, like I would forget it but it would always be in my mind if I didn't write it down. A moment later I opened my eyes and stared right in the face of Lexi who had apparently been watching me the whole time. I shrieked a little bit but showed a little smile right after.

"Good morning sunshine" she said with a big smile on her face before she jumped on my bed and stared asking me how I was feeling and if I remembered what happened to me. I answered short but clear because in fact I felt better than yesterday, I hadn't seen myself but of course I didn't tell her that. She would look at me like I was crazy if i did. And I did remember what happened yesterday in perfect detail which was odd because normally I forget everything.

But that didn't matter now I looked at the clock and saw that I had slept till 3 pm. When Lexi saw me stress about the time she assured me that there were no classes today because of the Lightning bolt that hit the school and the damage because of the heavy storm. She also told me I was the only one who got hurt which was a relieve to hear.

Because what I've been trough I don't wish upon anyone else, even my worst enemy.

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I was getting better and within a week I was starting again like nothing had ever happened. I didn't know how wrong I was I didn't see the signs I should have seen, that I wasn't alright.

Instead I ignored everything and that has cost me deep and it kills me to know that I can't take back what happened.

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Life is full of choices even if you can't see them.

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A/n

Yesss.. Another chapter complete hope you liked it and if you have any suggestions be sure to comment.

This is my first book so be sure to give me tips on how to write better and hopefully I see you again at the next chapter.