killjoy || jjk

二十八

some men just want to
watch the world burn.
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GOOGLE

［ why do my friends disappear?| ］

［ why do my fr| ］

［ why?| ］

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【jungkook's cellphone blasts out a song, signalling a call. he reluctantly tears himself away from the computer to pick up the call】

JUNGKOOK:
"hello?"

JUNGHYUN:
"what's up, little bro."

JUNGHYUN:
"how's life?"

JUNGKOOK:
"okay i guess."

JUNGHYUN:
"that's great to hear."

JUNGHYUN:
"anyways mom is
asking about your
monthly rent."

JUNGHYUN:
"you have yet
to pay right?"

JUNGKOOK:
"yeah."

JUNGHYUN:
"you better pay soon
before she cuts you off."

JUNGHYUN:
"strange."

JUNGHYUN:
"mom never asks
me to hurry up with
the rental payment
of my apartment."

JUNGHYUN:
"maybe it's because i
always pay on time."

JUNGKOOK:
"anything else i
need to know?"

JUNGKOOK:
"like i care anyway."

JUNGHYUN:
"watch your tone."

JUNGHYUN:
"getting snappy with
me or mom is not going to 
help with your situation."

JUNGHYUN:
"we took good
care of you after
dad passed away."

JUNGKOOK:
"whatever."

JUNGKOOK:
"like you and her
give an absolute
crap about me."

JUNGKOOK:
"you both are
the same."

JUNGHYUN:
"what is wrong with
you, jeon jeongguk?!"

JUNGHYUN:
"what did we ever
do to you? what did
our mom do to make
you act like this way?"

JUNGHYUN:
"mom tried her best
to take care of us both
because we lost dad-"

JUNGKOOK:
"you're annoying."

JUNGKOOK:
"stop using dad as a
pity card for her."

JUNGKOOK:
"she always compares me
with you of how you're
such a perfect child
while i'm worthless-"

JUNGKOOK:
"is that your definition of
her 'taking good care of me'?"

JUNGKOOK:
"you have no fucking idea
how it's like to live in
someone else's shadow,"

JUNGKOOK:
"how it's like to
be seen as the boy
who can't do anything
while his older brother
is oh-so-wonderful."

JUNGKOOK:
"so don't talk to
me like you know me
so well, you crusty ass."

JUNGKOOK:
"you're just calling
me because you
guys want money."

JUNGHYUN:
"you're despicable."

JUNGHYUN:
"after all this time,
after all the effort-"

JUNGKOOK:
"whatever 'effort' that
y'all put in anything at
all, won't get you guys
anywhere in life."

JUNGKOOK:
"just saying."

JUNGKOOK:
"no wonder y'all can't
find a stable job. both
of you just leech off
from others instead of
relying on yourselves."

JUNGHYUN:
"you're going to
get it from her."

JUNGKOOK:
"hah."

JUNGKOOK:
"tattle to her then,
that's one of your
'special' talents."

JUNGHYUN:
"jeongguk, fu-"

JUNGKOOK:
"you can't swear right?
because she hates it."

JUNGKOOK:
"so let me say it for you."

JUNGKOOK:
"fuck. you."

JUNGKOOK:
"hope you have a
splendid day today."

【jungkook slams down the phone, seething with anger. he takes a deep
breath, calming himself before
he goes back to the computer】
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GOOGLE

［ why do i feel so lonely?| ］

［ i feel so lonely yet.....| ］

［ yet i feel so| ］

［ alive?| ］