The Weird Wacky Random stuff that goes on in my Head!!

Confession

Guys

I have to say something, and I need your opinion on it.

But please listen first.

So, for some time i've been noticing that I'm not exactly thin. Which, I already kinda knew. 

But my parents are always telling me that I should stop eating so much or at least do some exercise to level my weight.

And I've always denied that I eat too much and that I don't care how I look, but deep inside I know I actually do care because I'm always looking at other girl's bodies to see if that's how mine looks and if it's too fat or too thin or if it's perfect...

I don't know, honestly, I'm just super confused right now. 

 And I know that I always write chapters about being comfortable with your body, and I'm not going back on that, I'm still proud of being chubby, like, I'm not about to shame people for that or try to go and be a skinny 

I don't want to make this chapter so deep and so meaningful because I like this story just being fun and games and stuff, but there's nobody else I can actually tell...

I feel big. Like, not fat, just...big. Like I'm using up more space than I should in this world.

And so I've been considering lowering my level of eating. Because, yeah, I kinda do eat a lot because FOOD RIGHT?!!

But I don't know if I have the strength to just lay off of fatty foods because I'm pretty much addicted to them. 

Anyways, I don't want to seem this basic, although I kinda am being pretty basic talking about how I don't like my body and all that shiz 

I just don't know, honestly. 

So if any of you have advice...like, should I propose this to myself? Is it too basic? Should I be more comfortable with who I am? <<<oh god that last one, almost too cheeeeezyyy

Please just let me know in the comments :/

Love you all