MERTHUR "Look at me."

Part Three.

<<Don't close your eyes. Look at me.>>
That was the very first time that, after they lied down in the bed together, Arthur talked to Merlin.
Face one another, Arthur was holding him tightly.
But that time, instead of falling asleep quickly without a word, Arthur spent countless minutes staring into his eyes.
He whispered those words in Merlin's ear.
Merlin was paralysed and remained immobile.
Their bodies were intertwined.
<<How much deeper do you want to go, Arthur?>>
<<I don't know.>>
Arthur's words were honest.
His voice was shaking.
Merlin never heard him so insecure.
<<Why do you let me do these things?>>
<<For the same reason you want me to stay here.>>
<<I doubt it.>>
Merlin sat up in bed to see his face better.
<<Why?>>
<<Because I'm the King and you do what I ask you to do.>>
<<No, I stay here every night because you are Arthur.>>
<<And what's that supposed to mean?>>
<<I don't know either.>>
<<We don't know a thing, do we?>>
<<I'd say no.>> Merlin almost smiled.

That situation made him nervous, but at the same time he felt peace.
That intimacy with Arthur made his heart happy.
<<Would you let me do this too?>>
Arthur kissed him very softly.
<<Yes.>> Merlin spoke on his lips.
Both of them, their bodies were crossed by a shiver.
<<Maybe you should stop me.>>
Arthur seemed to feel guilty about that moment of absolute pleasure.
<<And if I don't want to?>>