Where were you? ( slow updates)

~Chapter five~

~edited~

   "Do you actually think you can come back and be my best friend again"?. I think on what I just said was a tad mean but I keep going with my words that I don't know what I'm trying to say.

   "I mean why are you really here"? I would be honest and tell her to go away but that would be saying like losing a part of me.

   "Listen I know you don't want me here but nether does I". Her answer surprises me a bit but I try not to take it to the heart.

"But I heard about your mother and your dad and I can't be those people who have no emotion towards people".She puts her hand on my forearm, I move back a bit. Her hands were cold and it seems almost purple.

"When did you come back "? She looks down for a second but looks up to my eyes. Its like she was searching for something in my eyes. None less we both had red eyes probably from watery eyes.

" Well I-I uh ... A year ago", nobody dares to talk at least until some one from downstairs calls us down.

I look at her with a shocked face of disbelieving knowing that she could of helping me with my bad times.

I shake my head and go ahead to dinner with a fake smile that most people would fall for.

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  I can tell she felt bad but why couldn't she give me a few visits' here and there. Where was she?

Nobody talks except Karen and Stacy but that doesn't mean the rest isn't.

It was like we were talking with our eyes. She was giving me pity looks and I give her disappointed.

After everyone was done we all went to the door but I went straight to my room with a wave showing good bye.

The only way to make me feel better was music or friend or should I say, true friends?

I text Jace letting him know I'm coming over later. Since Karen always comes up to say good night I have to wait until she will sleep. It wasn't like this was the first time I've done this.

So about 10:00 Karen will watch her favourite soap opera then she will watch some random shows that come after. But she always ends up watching only two random show that is about 15 minutes each which doesn't really make sense to me.

When she gives up and goes to the kitchen to grab a glass of water with a sleeping pill. After goes to her bedroom and have a deep sleep. It would be about 11:05 when its good to go.

I go through my window trying to not make sounds while doing it. I look back once more just in case I forget something I will need.

I feel the breeze of the cold night dark usual weather. I get goosebumps knowing that this wasn't safe but That thought never made me go back, not even once. Maybe I really was changing through these years without Laura but was that a bad or good thing.

I keep walking until I find myself on the front door. Now you would think why would you go to the front door you can wake up the parents. But lucky me Jace parents aren't home for the week.

I bring my finger up and press the door bell. I wait there for a few moments but before I press the door bell again the door opens and is greeted by a boy named Jace.

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  I notice that I'm starting to stare at Jace while he's talking to me. I try to focus on what he's saying but instead, I find his face more interesting to have concentration.

He clearly wasn't waiting for me because of his eyes but he still has his t-shirt from school this morning. At least he changes his jeans into sweatpants. His eyes are a bit bloodshot from fatigue but still shining bright green orbs.

You can tell he had changed physically from the past year's but in a good way.

No wonder half of the girls like him.

His blonde hair was messy but neat at the same time which I always wanted. Sure you can say I was a bit jealous of him, I mean how could you not.

But every time I tell him that he just shuts me down and make me feel better with his compliments about me.

I ended up being his partner and going to his house to do the project to work on it.

We got to know each other more and getting closer. He would make me forget Laura and go on in life. He seems to do a pretty good job at it until she came back.

"Aaron you space out again", he tells me softly. " I'm sorry I just have a lot of things on my mind at the moment". I take a breath and look back at him.

" Like what "? He comes closer to me and puts his best focus face.

"Well, you know how Laura is back it just got me thinking about things she said-"

I get cut off, " wait when did you guys talk to each other"? He seems shocked at what was coming from my mouth. "Uh a few hours ago at my house for dinner".

I start explaining him everything that happens earlier. I felt like a girl who explained to their friends about them saying something simple of their school crush.

But I wasn't cause I don't like Laura that way, I mean not anymore I think.

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" So see you tomorrow at the mall" I nod and leave his house and on my way to mine.

Of course, my mind wonders off to space. I start thinking about how weird this evening was.

Maybe I'm overreacting but then again why didn't she come see me. Maybe she had a good reason. Wait why not one text of her to me be so bad.

This all was too confusing for me, no wonder I never sleep and have dark circles under my eyes.

~julieth♡~