nephophilia | myg

三十二

it's raining cats and dogs today.

work starts tomorrow... i can't wait to start working.

i'm in namdo's room today
and i can see him by the corner,
looking very eager to get his way with me again.

"so, it's another week again today. get over here."

"uh um- i..."

i really can't refuse.

"hey, you enjoy it too don't ya? come on."

just a little more... i just need to bear it for a little longer, and then i can pay it all back!

namdo ran his hands up my body and started touching me down there.
as he kissed me sloppily, i could feel his erection pressing against me.
suddenly, i felt the urge to vomit.

so i looked over the window.

it was pouring heavily.

the rain will eventually stop... blue skies painted with white clouds.

pretty soon, i'll be able to ride the clouds everyday.
with yoongi, holding hands...

then, i chanced to look up at the glass door leading towards the veranda

and my eyes found itself staring directly into his eyes.

yoongi's eyes.

i was going to call out to him.
i was going to tell him the reason why this is happening.
but i wonder why voice wouldn't come out.

i can see yoongi's pained expression as he left, leaving me guilty and disappointed at myself.

the thing that i have been meaning to keep him from finding out, was no longer a secret.