I Won't Give In (Completed)

Chapter 18 - Emotions

Colton POV

"I will. I will stop you, Colton. It won't be today. Hell, it won't be next week. But one day, I will be the one who stops your reign of terror. I will be the one to stop your sadistic torture on innocents. I will be the one to end you. For when you least expect it, I will be the one to drive a silver dagger into your black heart and there won't be a Goddamn thing you or any of your followers can do about it. I will look into your eyes and watch the life drain from you with a smile on my face. You will end at my hands, Colton."  She threatens. Her rage floods our bond with a never-ending fire that burns through me. It lights a flame within me that was smothered an eternity ago. 

Skylar spins on her heel and quickly bolts into the house, leaving me alone to think over her words. I knew that it would be only a matter of time before she discovered what I did. It wasn't entirely intentional like she claimed. In truth, I did send him to her to check on her. However, I didn't send him with the thought that he would take advantage of her like that. The thought didn't cross my mind until I noticed that he was taking longer than usual to check on her. And that's when I found him almost impaling her. 

I should have cut his dick off. 

I don't necessarily blame Skylar for jumping to her conclusion. I mean, I don't have the best track record with her. I just didn't really think that those words would come out of her mouth. 

I would be lying if I said I didn't expect her to threaten me in some way. I know she hates me. I know she wants me dead. I can feel it every time she looks at me. I was surprised by the intensity of her words though. I truly didn't expect to feel so much promise from her speech. 

Those words lit something within me. Something indescribable and strange. This feeling - I just don't know how to put it into words. It's almost a newfound respect for my mate, but I wouldn't stop there. It's like a strong fondness that goes deeper than my lust for her physical being. I don't know what it is. 

And I can't even blame it on the bond. This is something way deeper than that. It comes down to an emotion that I buried within myself years ago. An emotion that I thought long disappeared with the death of my mother. An emotion that I never thought I was capable of feeling ever again. 

Yet, here I stand. Alone. My heart racing as fast as my mind. My body humming with desire for her. My fingers twitching with the need to feel her soft skin. My lips aching to touch hers. My cock hard, wanting to enter it's home within her. But, I haven't moved from where she left me and I have no intention until I can reign in whatever witchcraft she has over me. She can never know the hold she now has over me.

She can never know of the pride I had while she spoke those words. I could never tell her how the strength she finally showed me made me feel.  

Skylar can never know of this feeling growing inside me.

She can never know that my heart is in her hands. 

She can never know that I, the monster of all Alphas, has fallen for her. 

For that new emotion that is burning inside me is simple. 

That emotion is love. 

Love for my mate.

Fuck, what am I getting myself into?

I could never love her the way that she expects a mate to. That's not who I am and I refuse to weaken myself to suit what she wants. I am a fucken Alpha. I can't show weakness. I can't have a weakness. 

This is where I begin to pace. My mind and my heart are fighting for what they feel is right, but my mind is winning this battle. How dare she disrespect me like that? How dare she embarrass me in front of my warriors and interrupt such an important meeting? How dare she threaten to kill me?