she looks like you | k.t.h

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Yuna: i didn't go through with it.

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Could I really kill your child? The only thing I have left of us--of you.

And it disgusts me, how close I was to going through with it. I really am a heartless bitch, taking away something so precious without even consulting you about it.

Really, how did you ever love me? How could you love someone as cold and selfish as me when you're the complete opposite. You're too kind, seeing the best in everyone despite all their faults, but I can't help but wonder what you could've seen in me?

I was sitting in the waiting room when the nurse called my name. I looked down at my abdomen, mentally saying goodbye to the child I never even got to see. Something struck me then--I thought of it as my child. My own flesh and blood, and yours too. The world deserves someone else like you, Tae, and I'd be cruel to deprive the world of someone so special. I hope he or she is just like you--pure despite being surrounded by wickedness.

I'll do my best to keep our baby safe and healthy these next several months. It's the least I can do after everything you did for me.