Fragile Hearts | chaelisa✔

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"Hey Chae! Come on we're gonna take a picture!" Jennie whined, trying to get my attention as she held her phone up.

We were sitting on the steps outside of my building. Just the four of us. I, Taehyung, Jennie and Yoongi.

Taehyung is my male best friend. I've known him for three years now and he is like an older brother to me. He has always been there for me, listened to me talk, comfort me when I cried and made me smile whenever I was unhappy.

He came out two years ago and told me he was gay. I remember that day, we were talking about a famous YouTuber, Joey Graceffa and how much I wished I had a gay best friend like him. I remember Taehyung looking at me with hopeful eyes, a smile of relief on his face as if he wanted to tell me something. It was that night, as I stood at the entrance of my building that he came out to me. And as we continued our conversation outside of my apartment, I couldn't be happier. I remember hugging him tightly, feeling so happy that my eyes filled with tears. The fact that he swung the other way didn't change anything. Instead it made our friendship bond stronger.

The same night, he told me he had a crush on Yoongi. Yoongi had moved in the neighborhood since middle school, but he hadn't hung out with anyone from it until this year. He seemed so nice when I first met him. He was so kind to me and it's probably why I also happened to have a crush on him.

Of course I told Taehyung about it. He didn't seem to mind and told me it was okay. I never confessed to Yoongi. I never thought I'd have a chance with him either way. Maybe we were better off as just friends, although we weren't close.

But things started changing and all of a sudden he grew colder than ice.

I still remember what happened this one day, when he rejected me. I don't know how he found out I had a crush on him. I didn't give off any signals to hint him that I liked him.

It all started when he sent this text to a group chat we had together with Taehyung and Yeri.

Yoongi
Found this girl's insta profile
She's hot 👌
Delivered 16:42 pm
Read 20:49 pm

⭐
Yoongi hunting for chicks y'all😂
Read 21:20 pm

Yoongi
I'm not really in the
mood Rosé.
So stop it.
Read 21:22 pm

⭐
Same to be honest.
What's up with you?
Read 21:25 pm

Yoongi
Okay Rosé,you're
getting on my nerves
Stop
We all know you have
a crush on me
But just so you know,
I'll never love you
Read 21:35 pm

⭐
Wtf
Keep dreaming
Read 21:37 pm

You have left the group

Taehyung has added you to
'CTYx2'

Taehyung
Yoongi, cut the crap.
Read 21:58 pm

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I scooted closer to Jennie, a smile making its way to her lips as she took a few pictures of the four of us. Once she was satisfied, she put her phone on her lap and began going through the photos, deleting the ones she didn't like and keeping the ones she liked. Yoongi leaned over, looking at the photos with her as the two began chatting with one another.

The two have been getting pretty close lately. For some reason, I can't help but feel jealous. Is it because I want to be close to Yoongi? Am I even jealous because of that? I strongly dislike him and after how rude he was to me that day - there is no way I'm ever going to forgive him.

He didn't even apologize.

Just went on with his life as if nothing happened.

Taehyung pokes his head out from beside me, staring at me in silence. I turn my head to look at him and give him a faint smile.

The two of us hold our eye contact for a few seconds before he gestures to the supermarket with his chin. I nod and the both of us stand up. I tell Jennie that Taehyung and I are going to take a walk. She just nods and goes back to her conversation with Yoongi.

Taehyung and I begin walking in silence.

It's quiet for awhile as we reach the supermarket, however Taehyung stops walking and now stands in front of me.

"Have you been doing it again?"he asks, looking over at me with concerned eyes.

I sigh in response to his question, looking away from him. "Yes." I mumble as he grabs my hand and pushes the sleeve of my jacket up, revealing the several cuts on my wrist.

"Why?"he asks, looking back up at me. Behind his deep brown eyes hides a pool of emotions. Worry, anger and sadness are the ones present at the moment.

"A lot of reasons."

I pull my arm away and push the sleeve back down, looking back up at him.

"Give me one good fucking reason." he spat, his hand clenching into a fist.

I only stare at him for a few seconds. If only he knew how many reasons there were. How they all added up and threw me to the darkest point of my teenage years.

"Let's see," I begin, using my fingers to count. "Bullying, worthlessness, not being good anything. . ." I trail off for a moment, shrugging  my shoulders afterwards. "A lot of good reasons actually."

"Then talk to your parents about it." he told me, running a hand through his hair - something he did when he was frustrated. "And you're not worthless, don't you dare say that word ever again."

"Why? What are my lovely parents gonna do? Nothing. Besides,I haven't really opened up to my mother since two years ago." I state, walking past him and entering the supermarket. The white tiled floor clinked against my boots as I walked down the sweets aisle, Taehyung following."You know exactly why. I've told millions of times how busy she is with work and how exhausted she looks after coming home. After all of the work stress she goes through, I don't think she needs to hear her daughter expressing how fucked up she truly is."

Taehyung walked beside me, turning his head to look at me. "That doesn't mean you shouldn't try opening up to her. Come on, Chae - she's your mother, the person who loves you the most in this world." he said, walking over to the snacks and drinks section as he grabbed a bag of chips and a soda. "Do you want anything?"

I simply shook my head and followed him to the cashier, waiting for him to pay, before following him outside.

"At least promise me you won't cut anymore." he spoke, looking at me while we walked towards the steps of my building where Yoongi and Jennie were seated.

"That's a promise we both know I can't keep."

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EDITED 23/09/18