There are things in life that are really important and family is one of them. Losing your family is like losing a part of yourself. You feel so numb... so broken that you can't even shed tears. No matter how much you want to, you can't.
That was how I felt. I stood there, numb, looking at the empty coffins of my parents. They couldn't find the bodies. Mom and Dad were in an airplane crash so their bodies couldn't be identified.
Everyone kept telling me how they we were in a good place now and how good they were towards them but I couldn't comprehend a single thing. I was too numb to care.
I looked over towards Austin to see him crying. His eyes were bloodshot red but it didn't match his eyes. He looked... satisfied?
Maybe it was just an illusion because the second he caught my gaze, he came over and hugged me to his chest. I sobbed silently, wetting his shirt with the salty water.
I sat in my bed, looking at all those picture albums. I couldn't hold my tears in. I flipped through the pages, my hands caressing my parents' pictures.
I missed them. So much. Xavier's parents were back but I couldn't care less. I just wanted to be left alone. Austin was busy with all the paper work and my custody was given to him since he was the oldest.
Everyone has their own way to cope with the pain and mine was to stay locked in a room and cry myself to sleep while looking at the old pictures.
A knock on the door snapped me out of my train of thought. I wiped the tears as the door opened.
Xavier stood there with a tray full of food
"I got you food" He said. I didn't reply. I was trying my hard to control my tears. "Ari, princess, there is no point of starving yourself" He spoke softly, just the way my dad did when I wasn't well or when I was angry with him.
And that did it. I broke down into tears. Soon, I felt the warmth of someone's body; Xavier's body. He hugged me to his chest "Shh.. I'm here, baby" he cooed.
"I-I m-miss them, Xavier. I can't. I can't do it anymore" I sobbed.
"I know, baby, I know it's hard for you but you have to be strong. For Austin. You both need to be strong for each other. Crying would only cause you pain and starving yourself isn't good for your health. Think about Austin" he said.
"You don't know how it feels. I cannot do this anymore" I cried. Xavier tightened his arms around me, pulling me more closer to his chest. I fit his body perfectly, just like the missing pieces of puzzle.
"I know what it feels like to lose your parents. Trust me"
"What?" I hiccuped.
"It's a story for another time. Now, you should get up and eat something" he moved away and I instantly missed his warmth.
Xavier got the tray from the nightstand and motioned me to open my mouth. I did as told and he fed me a spoon full of rice.
He fed me until the food was finished and with a kiss on my forehead, he left me tucked in the bed.
It may sound weird but I actually wanted him to stay with me. I enjoyed being in his arms. I missed his warmth the minute he unwrapped himself from me.
I didn't expect Xavier to be so caring.. so understanding. I was actually surprised from his behaviour. He cared so much that it confused me. I had heard the rumours about how cold hearted he was and he turned out to be the opposite.
Maybe he just wants to get into my pants.
'Or maybe he cares for you' A voice in my head spoke.
Xavier can be anything but caring. He uses girls for his own pleasures and then throws them away the second he's done with them.
I've seen girls crying for him.. because of him. Girls crying their hearts out just because he left them and I don't want to end up being one of them.
I woke up screaming. I had a nightmare about my parents dying. I brought my knees up chest and wrapped my arms around them to stop myself from shaking.
The door opened abruptly and before I knew it, Xavier was at my side, hugging me again and whispering 'it's okay' over and over again.
Soon, I had stopped crying but I couldn't control my hiccups. Xavier sat next to me on bed, his arms tightly around me. My head rested on his chest as he ran his hand soothingly around my back, comforting me.
My eyes closed in content and a sigh escaped my mouth. I loved this feeling. The tingles that his touch gave me were unknown but they felt so right.
I felt Xavier getting up, leaving me alone. Scared of the nightmares, my hand darted out and held his wrist
"Stay" I whispered. I could feel him getting back and wrapping his arms around me. My head rested on his chest and I felt him kissing the top of my head
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Mr.Bad Boy And MeTeen Fiction
UPDATE: THE STORY IS STILL UNEDITED AND HASN'T BEEN UPDATED. NEW UPDATE COMING REAL SOON *NOT EDITED* #63 in TeenFiction. 02/10/16 ~•~•~•~•~•~ Ariana Lockwood is a Sweet, sarcastic, funny, sassy two goody shoes. She doesn't drink or smoke and does...