No Rest for The Weary| Crystal Gems X Reader

Chapter 30: Take a Moment

"This is Y/n's journal..." Pearl realized as she flipped through the pages, "Oh, I shouldn't read this... I'm violating Y/n's privacy... But... if they don't know it won't hurt anyone," Pearl thought as she continued reading later into the pages.

"Sometimes it's hard to convince myself to get out of bed," Y/n's journal read, "I only do because I know that if I don't, I'm just gonna wind up in jail... on a less comfortable bed,"

"Oh poor thing..." Pearl murmured as she flipped a page

"I know I have good friends, but sometimes it's just exhausting. I feel like I always have to try and be extraordinary and if I'm not... I'm scared they might get bored of me. Right now, they're the only reason I get up in the morning. All of this is for them. I can't lose them, but I'm not sure how long I can keep this up," Y/n's journal read

"Y/n... don't do this to yourself," Pearl whispered as she continued reading

"They just keep... bailing me out," Y/n's journal read, "I appreciate it, I really do. I just can't help feeling like I'm wasting their time. They say I'm not, but I just don't believe them. I wanna be able to take care of myself. I promised I'd ask for help when I need it, but I don't even know what the hell is wrong, how am I supposed to ask for help? God, I hope they never find this book..."

"Uh oh..." Pearl chuckled nervously at the last line as she continued to the latest page

"I've got a weird feeling about this whole Finch situation... I know he forged the evidence against me or at least hired someone... but there's no way he could've gotten the police in on it too. It's all too weird, but... I'm used to weird by now. Weird is basically my life now and I kind of like it. Is that weird? Eh, maybe a little. Either way, I wanna find out the answer, I just don't know how. I don't think I should bother them about it, they've got bigger fish to fry and to be honest so do I. As long as I keep out of trouble for a few more months, I'll be Scott free. As much as I wanna stay in Beach City, I doubt getting charged with something else will extend my probation," The passage read

"Yo, Y/n's gonna be pissed," Amethyst whispered with a chuckle as she woke and saw Pearl with the journal

"It- It was an accident! I didn't know-" Pearl stammered

"Shh, you'll wake 'em up," Amethyst warned, "Let 'em sleep,"

"Right..." Pearl sighed, "Wait, how did you know this was their journal?" Pearl questioned

"I read it one time when Y/n was at school," Amethyst admitted, "Fry dude just let's anyone up here if they just say they know Y/n,"

"Did... Did you see these pages?" Pearl showed

"Uh, didn't see this last one, but I saw those," Amethyst nodded

"What should we do about it?" Pearl asked, "I have no clue what to do when it comes to humans..."

"Beats me," Amethyst shrugged

"It's kind of hard to believe Y/n feels that way, they don't act like that..." Peal commented

"I was talking with 'em last night," Amethyst said, "They said something about it being an act... How they're really scared, they just don't wanna show it,"

"Well, why not?" Pearl frowned, "They should know by now we want to help,"

"I dunno, they didn't really say..." Amethyst told

"Sometimes I just wish I could enter their mind and just see what they're thinking," Pearl sighed

"Hey, the mind is a sacred place," Amethyst told, "Gotta keep it private,"