Operation Zanvis

Bandaged

Zane/POV

'Why have I never felt this way before?'
"Why is my heart beating so fast?" I said, As I reilised i was still staring at Travis. Then it hit me, I had said that aloud..

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"Why is my heart beating so fast?"
The comment made my heart race. 'What if...' I thought 'all I have to do is get him to like me.. If I do that, we could be together! Times almost up.. I have to be quick.'
I look down at my pocket and see a bottle is still there. 'Thank god..'
I noticed Zane had pulled his sleeves up, looking at his wrists.
As I walk over to sit next to Zane, I choke on my words.
"Zane? Is everything alright?"

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"Zane? Is everything alright?"
I went out of my internal state and looked up at Travis to see him sitting next to me at the end of the bed. Our faces so close I noticed his eyes, they shift colors, so, whimsical, so, enchanting...
"Uh.. Yeah everything's f-fine"
I pushed my sleeves down, causing me to wince from my sleeves tugging on the bandages around my wrists.
"Zane?"
I look up at Travis, tearing up
"What Travis?"
He looks down at me with loving eyes and kisses me
It was sweet, not as aggressive as the last.
'Travis..'
"Zane. Tell me"
'Isn't is obvious?'

I pull up a sleeve, my eyes closing at the pain. Un-wrapping the bandage, revealing open wounds, gashes on my inner arm. The cold air surrounding us made the cuts sting. I could practically see Travis' heart sink in his chest, his eyes widen with thought. He grabs my arm and leans his head over my arm, dropping a tear on my wrist.
I close my eyes, It burns for a second, then I feel nothing. My entire arm goes numb. Then I open my eyes.

"Travis?"
"Yes?"
"W-what was t-that?"
"I will tell you later now close your eyes, and lay back. This wont be fun but you will thank me later..."
Those where the last things I heard before my vision went black. Then light, bright light.
I'm in my bedroom, on my floor, leaning on my bed. I have gaws and a knife next to me.. I start reaching for the knife. I'm screaming, but there is no sound. I cant control myself. I'm trapped in my mind.
"No!! Stop!!! Why cant I get these god damn words out!"

//*third person*//

The blue eyed male slowly raises the knife above his arm. Then lowers the blade.
The edge digging into his arm then trailing back, across his wrist, creating a deep open wound flushing with blood, spilling out onto the floor. Tears a spilling from his eyes. Puting the knife back above his arm, slightly lower than once before. Re-doing the same motion leaving another gash in his arm.

Zane/POV

"AHHHG!" I cant help but scream. The pain worsens with each slash. 'I dont want this again, not again.'
Everything goes dark. I wake up in Travis' arms. I have tears flowing from my eyes.