Drown Me (TRIGGER WARNING!)

Part 6

*DAN'S POV*
I wake up, my eyes full of tears and my pillow damp from crying all night, another day of hell I sigh as I force myself to get up and face reality. I walk into the kitchen and my stomach grumbles in pain and hunger I look down at my size and realize how much weight I've been gaining recently and decide to just avoid food for a while. I put on my black headphones and rush out the door while listening to Starlight by Muse, the song that Phil and I used to listen to all the time back in 2009, I sigh, I miss those days.

*PHIL'S POV*
I wake up with a headache and blurry eyes, I roll over to get more sleep as I hit the floor I put my head up to notice I'm not in my room, I'm in the lounge. I start to remember everything from last night and sigh, I miss Dan I need to talk to him and sort everything out. "Dan?" I call out but get no answer, he's probably still mad at me. I get up slowly and make my way to his room while rubbing my eyes to get my vision right again. "Dan?" I call out again but still no answer, I look in his room to see that he's not in there so instead decide to just text him.
-Dan come home we need to talk-
I turn off my phone and make my way back to the couch to get a bit more sleep before he arrives.

*DAN'S POV*
I sit on the bench and watch the birds dancing in the air as my mind runs off until *PING* My phone distracts my thoughts. I pick my phone up to read the message
-Dan come home we need to talk-
A message from Phil... I scroll up to see that the last message from Phil was from a month ago. I sigh and start to walk towards home once again.

*10 MINUTES LATER*
As I walk through the front door I see Phil on the couch asleep, I smile, he looks so peaceful and relaxed and it makes me not want to wake him up but something keeps telling me I should. I lightly tap him on the shoulder "Phil?" Phil instantly opens his eyes "Dan?" He asks "Yeah I got your message" I reply while awkwardly standing. Phil trys to move but fails the first time "Can you please help me up? He asks looking directly at me "Uh yeah sure" I quickly look down as I hesitantly hold my hand out. He holds onto my hand as I help him up off the couch. "Thanks" He says looking into my eyes I stare back at them for a good few minutes until I look down shyly and full of shame "Sorry" I quickly say he looks at me and smiles "You don't need to be sorry" he replies, still looking directly at me. I try to look at him normally but I can't without falling more in love with him.

*PHIL'S POV*
I wake up to a light tap on my shoulder and someone saying my name, I look up and see Dan standing over me and smiling like crazy until he suddenly sees me looking at him and quickly looks away "Dan?" I ask stating the obvious. "Yeah I got your message" he replies and I could tell he felt awkward. I try to get myself up but fail and fall back down "Can you please help me up" I try my best not to sound or look awkward but for me that came naturally. He pauses for a second and then pulls out his hand "Uh yeah sure" I smile as I grab his hand and pull myself up off the couch. I look directly in his eyes, and it was a feeling I had never felt before... Love? Was I gay? Was I in love with Dan? I kept looking at him and couldn't help but smile, Yeah I was gay for sure and in love with Dan Howell.