Hear My CRYS

pain

This thorn in my flesh
Is the only thing I got left
And it's so hard to confess
When everybody thinks you're perfect

But I cry for you
If you feel it, too
And I'll cry for you
If you're so hard to lose
The elephant's in the room

Take it away, I beg you, take it all away
The pain it causes, it makes me wish I could fade away
If they knew what you knew, they'd probably shun me
I'm surprised you know it all and you love me
I know I break your heart
Body of death, give me rest if my heart stops
Then it don't hurt no more, can't get worse no more
Can't pursue all these desires, it ain't cursed no more
No more lies about my worth no more

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Looking towards the ceiling in the most beautiful room has it was decorated to perfection but instead laying upon the floor was the only thing i knew for 3 years of my life how does one trasition to something so different when this was all that I was use to you may say

" why you so fucked its a comfortable bed whats not to love "

your right whats not to love but thats hard when you dont know how to recognize and receive all this nor do i want it and it's not like ill be here for long soon I'll be right back on them streets doing what I do best holding my head down and watching my own back because ain't no one giving you shit for free especially no man I should know

Flashbacks

Hey elly baby girl is that you

I heard looking up seeing a familiar face noticing my mother's sister hey aunty vee has I tried to continue my walk around the block

" elly where you going I just came back from JAMAICA waz about to go say hi to my brother "

she said has tears ran down my face not wanting to say those words

" Elizabeth wht you crying baby"

my father and aunty vee were never close so I didn't think she would of cared when I told her what had happened to both my parents my mother and your father died in a fire and I was the only survivor I'm sorry I gotta go

" OMG NO NO THAN WHERE OR WHO HAVE YOU BEEN STAYING WITH "

she asked as I looked down too scared to say I didn't wanna go back to another group home.

" Get in the car your coming home with me "

has I did what I was told. We drove in silence as sniffles and crys were all I herd we entered a nice 2 story house within a nice neighborhood we exited the Car entering the home has a fog of smoke clouded the entrance 21 savage blasted throughout the house watching as my aunt cussed her friend

" Christopher is you serous right now what I tell you bout smoking in my house "

" Olivia this my house so idk who you think you talking to sit yo was down"