the Life of a Lover

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a/n: thank you all so much for reading! here's another chapter <3

Jimin hesitates before he rings the doorbell, heart racing, toying with the strings on his oversized hoodie. He panics when no one answers, wondering if he'd gotten the wrong address. Jimin whips out his phone, tapping the chat Yoongi-hyung and scrolling up just a little. 158-6, Ahyeon-dong, Mapo-gu, Seoul. He did get it right. Jimin rings the doorbell again, this time hearing hurried footsteps. Yoongi opens the door, smiling.

"Come in." Yoongi extends his hand toward Jimin. Jimin extends a hand too, not sure what to do. Does hyung want me to shake his hand? Yoongi laughs after an awkward moment of silence.

"You're supposed to hold my hand, dummy." Yoongi slips his fingers through Jimin's. Jimin blushes, smiling guiltily, and pushes his bangs away from his eyes.

"Hey, you know your face is, like, really really red, right?" Yoongi teases, and Jimin whines and hits Yoongi on the arm. Yoongi chuckles and leads Jimin into his room.

"Welcome to our first date, Jiminie." Jimin gapes at Yoongi's room. The whole floor is covered with a mattress, and a snack bowl overflowing with snacks in place in the centre of the mattress. Jimin and Yoongi had agreed that an ideal first date would be indoors, watching movies and talking about everything on the face of earth. Thus, the current situation. Jimin rushes forward without warning, jumping onto the mattress. Yoongi laughs and follows. Yoongi cuddles up next to Jimin.

"So, whaddaya wanna talk about?" They end up talking about pugs.

It feels like they've been dating for months. Yoongi can feel the love flowing out of him into Jimin, and it's a wonderful feeling. For some reason, Yoongi finds it easier to give love this time, compared to with all his other boyfriends. Yoongi thinks that maybe it's because he just loves Jimin. Truly loves him. For once, Yoongi's grateful that he's a lover. Being able to give eternal love to the one you truly love – isn't it amazing?

Jimin already feels the love entering his soul, replenishing his "love tank", and silently apologises to Yoongi. It's like this every time. But Jimin finds himself feeling that Yoongi's love fills him faster than with other guys. Yoongi did seem different from the rest. It usually took some time for the love to start flowing in, but for Yoongi it was instant. It was like Yoongi was really in love with him. Jimin sighs, thinking about the break-up.
But Yoongi didn't know about that— no, Yoongi had hope that they would last.

"Why the sigh?" Yoongi slips an arm around Jimin's shoulder. Jimin shakes his head.

"It's nothing. Just... thinking about life."

"I know, man. Life sucks sometimes."

They lie in silence for what seems like half an hour before Jimin assumes Yoongi is asleep. He lets tears slip down his cheeks, careful not to let them touch Yoongi's perfect skin, and careful not to make any noise. But Yoongi, apparently, isn't asleep. He turns toward Jimin and wipes Jimin's tears away with his thumb. Yoongi lets Jimin cry, rubbing Jimin's back and humming a song which sounds vaguely familiar, but Jimin can't put his finger on it. All Jimin knows is it's calming and he doesn't ever want to leave Yoongi's arms. He buries his face in Yoongi's neck. They stay in that position until Jimin stops crying, and slowly turns to face the ceiling, wiping his tear-soaked face. Yoongi faces the ceiling as well.

"So, you feeling better?"

Jimin nods, though not speaking.

"Care to tell me what you were crying about? I'm all ears."

Jimin sniffs, and Yoongi offers him a tissue, in which Jimin blows his nose.

"I just don't want to leave you." Jimin finally speaks.

"So that's what you were crying about? Of course you'll always be with me, you fool." Yoongi caresses Jimin's hair.

"You don't understand, hyung. I don't want to break up with you. Ever. It's the first time I've ever felt like this."

"Jiminie, don't worry. I promise we'll never break up. Got it? Hyung will always be with you." Yoongi feels his eyes filling with tears, the wet substance threatening to overflow out of his eyes, because Yoongi can't trust his own words even though he feels the same way about Jimin. Yoongi slips his hand into Jimin's, squeezing it.

"Trust hyung, okay? It'll be alright."

Jimin lets out a sob, and Yoongi turns over to hug Jimin. It hurts that Yoongi has hope, when everything's going to end because of Jimin. It's not the first time that Jimin thinks of confessing to Yoongi about his... condition, but he decides against it. Jimin doesn't want to ruin their relationship because of a stupid thing, and Yoongi would probably not believe him anyway. So he keeps quiet, and lets himself fall asleep in Yoongi's arms.