Will Life Be The Same Without You? {Sequel To : If You Only Knew}

~Chapter 9~

~ Key :

(Y/N) - Your Name
(L/N) - Last Name
(F/C) - Favourite Colour
(S/F/C) - Second Favourite Colour
(E/C) - Eye Colour
(H/C) - Hair Colour
(F/F) - Favourite Food
(F/S) - Favourite Snack
(F/D) - Favourite Drink
(N/N) - Nickname
(H/S) - Hair Style
(R/N) - Rival's Name
(R/H/C) - Rival's Hair Colour
(R/E/C) - Rival's Eye Colour
(R/L/N) - Rival's Last Name

~More To Be Added~

Chapter 9 : Stay

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Nothing From Social Media
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*+*+*+(Y/N)'s PoV*+*+*+

Today is Another day,

Another day with out Gene.

Truthfully I was getting tired, I was tired of not having Gene around. He always kept me on my toes.

But I need to learn to live without. As I walk towards the building whom I called school, I looked at the dirt that lay at my feet.

Stones, pebbles, grey things, rocks, what ever you called them. They seemed more Interesting than school.

How could someone who brung colour into my life take it away so easily?

Maybe I'm just diving in too deep, maybe Gene never loved me in the first place.

Maybe I was a slave to his needs,

But why me?

I climbed up the stairs, as I walked to my form class, someone stopped me.

"(Y/N)!"

I turned around to see who was calling my name. And surprisingly it was that girl Dottie.

I probably had a blank expression on my face as she spoke to me.

"Have you seen Zenix?" She asked, still turning around looking for him.

I closed my eyes as I shook my head.

"Okay! Thank you anyways!" She said running along.

Honestly I want to go back to a time where everything was simpler.

I want to go back to those days where I didn't care about what other people thought, what I looked like, love, money. I want to go back to a time where non of that mattered.

But if they didn't matter would he still stay with me?

So easily, with harsh words
You put scars in my heart
Without even saying sorry
Again, I'm comforting myself
Always nervous if you're gonna leave me
I just want you to stay

When I look in the mirror now, I don't see an image of the happy girl I was. Now all I see is the image of a dull, tired teenage.

All I see, is a failure. A Faker. A Try Try Hard. An Attention Seeker. A Lier.

Would life be different if I hadn't have met Gene or would it still be the same?

In your expressionless face that's getting more and more dull
I whisper to the mirror, let's slowly let this go
You take me for granted
But that's you
But still, stay stay stay with me

But my feelings for him were genuine. Everything I felt was real. But why am I still holding unto these feelings?

I'm holding unto them because if Gene ever comes back I will be waiting.

And he hopefully will

Stay with me.

'Before the dark night traps me in
Don't leave me
Do you still love me?
If you feel the same, don't leave today
Don't ask why it has to be you
Just stay with me
(It goes a little something like)
I don't expect a lot right now
Just stay with me'

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560 {💔} Author's Note~
So, this chapter is mainly focusing on (Y/N)'s feelings because I feel I haven't done enough chapters on her feelings in general. Anyways this was supposed to be based on the song 'Stay' by Blackpink. And another thing I would like to address is that I am not doing so well. I have some family issues and personal issues so I may not make the Chapters all 'lovey' until I get better.

So today SHINee's Jonghyun has um well ended his life....And I'm crying my eyes out but Rip, you're save now oppa. 😭😭💔💔

{🎄} Qotc ~Have You Decorated For Christmas/Hanukkah etc yet? 🎄

{💚} PA (Personal answer) ~ Eh, 50/50 😅

~Roisin ❄️🎁🎄

🎁Written on ~15/12/17🎁
🎁15th Of December 2017🎁

❄️Published On ~ 18/12/17❄️
❄️18th Of December 2017❄️

-Word Count 560-
{Without Authors Note}

~✔️Edited✔️~